I'm actually kinda scared to post a journal here since it's been forever since I've even been on this site. I really really need to post art here more. The reason why I was always so hesitant about it was because of the lack of motivation and ideas to keep me running. I feel bad for neglecting this place and I don't want to delete this account either. I've been doing so many things but I keep forgetting about this place. I just remembered that this was pretty much the site that made me feel confident enough to even look and want to draw *cough* smut.

But there were times where I would just sulk to myself because I always felt like my art was never good enough for people to even like. Not just here but pretty much everywhere. So I posted less and less art. I can't help but compare myself to other artists and feel lousy for sucking. I feel like I'm not trying hard enough and I just want to quit. I've tried sketching and doodling to keep me going but I eventually get frustrated and give up.

But I don't want to give up...

I really want to keep drawing. I want to keep doing a lot more drawings. I want to feel confident enough to be able to whip up my tablet pen and start drawing whatever I can think of.

I'm not gonna lie....
I miss drawing dirty stuff.XD even if it wasn't a lot before.
I really want to try and post adult content. It's strangely one of those things that actually motivates me to want to draw something. Even if it isn't really adult oriented. Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm somewhat of a perv.:'D

I'm considering in taking requests for that kind of stuff in the future. That's going to have to wait though. Especially since I still have a whole lot of requests to do for people on deviantart. Although, I'll take art trades into consideration.

Soooo with that aside....
How is everyone doing?