though FWA was fun and I enjoyed being with my friends on my first adventure away from home.... in whole the con didn't leave me with a good taste in my mouth... and if it wasn't for my friends I don't think I would have even stayed for the whole con. I felt rather out of place when I wasn't in my own circle of friends there and felt a sense of dis belonging and all the crocked looks from some of the non suiters made me feel uneasy and like I was not meant for the whole thing. Again I want to make it clear that I LOVED! being with my friends and meeting a few new ones while I was out there, the two of them sharing the room with me and the few I had the pleasure of meeting at the convention ^^ such as

The first two days were kinda meh but Saturday and Sunday were a bit better, met some nice furs but I still never felt a sense that I belonged at the convention and it has made me think about a few things about myself as a whole. If that wasn't enough on the way home I had a rather horrible message sent to me which ended up cause a lot of trouble... I would like to try a convention again in a suit and see if that helps with my feelings but if I still feel like I felt during the convention when I was alone I will have to do some rethinking of myself.

I am forgetting to talk about all the good times and the wonderful people I met and hope to see them at future cons I go to.

to my close friends, this does not mean I did not spending time with you, I loved being able to be with you all and thank you for the ones that could be there for me on the ride home. I will still love to go on road trips with you all but I need to think about something before going to another con.