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*Sighs* Well, that's that I guess.
11 years ago
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Yesterday is gone, and with it, 95% of my sanity.
I always get down-ish during this time of the year, especially between August 18/22th, but this year, I thought it was going to be different, I thought that this time, I would have the strength and the someone to go through with it, but it turns out things didn't went as I thought they would, and not only I ended up spending this emotionally painful day alone, but it was also ten times worse than it had ever been, and without a damned doubt, the worst day of my life.
I was stepped on, almost used and thrown away again, severely mentally and mildly physically hurt, and reminded that I'm nothing but an object and a bother, by someone whom I thought I could count on from my past, and family.
What a truly fucking wonderful day it was.
I would just like to say something:
-If you ever find or see someone who is in need for company, or who just wants someone to talk with or going through a rather rough time, don't turn your gaze or attention away, and especially don't ignore the person, more so if he/she is feeling lonely.
-We all make mistakes, and we all sometimes desperately WANT or need some attention, specially when we feel down. You don't know what the other person is going through, but most of the time there is a lot of pain and sadness involved, but your intervention, help, or just your words can indeed make a difference in the situation, or even someone's life.
-Those of you who went through the same know what I'm talking about, and how conspicuously obvious it is to notice someone who might be in such need.
-NO ONE should go through a painful and sad moment in their life alone, and if you notice or see someone going through such, just take some damn 5/10/15m or even more if possible and try to make a difference.
-Smiles are beautiful, and honestly, sometimes, it's really easy to help or make someone happy with the simplest of acts or words.
Yes, this is in reference to what I went through yesterday, to what I am still going through honestly, but right now, it doesn't matter, because the pain and wounds are already there, and I'm just used to be the "test dummy".
I just wouldn't like to see anyone else go through what I did yesterday, especially since if I just had someone to talk with yesterday, things could have turned out very different.
Sorry for this whole bothersome wall of text, and thank you, whoever might read this.
I always get down-ish during this time of the year, especially between August 18/22th, but this year, I thought it was going to be different, I thought that this time, I would have the strength and the someone to go through with it, but it turns out things didn't went as I thought they would, and not only I ended up spending this emotionally painful day alone, but it was also ten times worse than it had ever been, and without a damned doubt, the worst day of my life.
I was stepped on, almost used and thrown away again, severely mentally and mildly physically hurt, and reminded that I'm nothing but an object and a bother, by someone whom I thought I could count on from my past, and family.
What a truly fucking wonderful day it was.
I would just like to say something:
-If you ever find or see someone who is in need for company, or who just wants someone to talk with or going through a rather rough time, don't turn your gaze or attention away, and especially don't ignore the person, more so if he/she is feeling lonely.
-We all make mistakes, and we all sometimes desperately WANT or need some attention, specially when we feel down. You don't know what the other person is going through, but most of the time there is a lot of pain and sadness involved, but your intervention, help, or just your words can indeed make a difference in the situation, or even someone's life.
-Those of you who went through the same know what I'm talking about, and how conspicuously obvious it is to notice someone who might be in such need.
-NO ONE should go through a painful and sad moment in their life alone, and if you notice or see someone going through such, just take some damn 5/10/15m or even more if possible and try to make a difference.
-Smiles are beautiful, and honestly, sometimes, it's really easy to help or make someone happy with the simplest of acts or words.
Yes, this is in reference to what I went through yesterday, to what I am still going through honestly, but right now, it doesn't matter, because the pain and wounds are already there, and I'm just used to be the "test dummy".
I just wouldn't like to see anyone else go through what I did yesterday, especially since if I just had someone to talk with yesterday, things could have turned out very different.
Sorry for this whole bothersome wall of text, and thank you, whoever might read this.
Nobody is just an object. :( I don't know what all is going on, but if you ever need somebody to talk to, send me a note? I've been taken advantage of and used a lot myself, and even if I can't do anything to make things better for you I'm always willing to listen.
*nuzzles* I hope things have gotten better since yesterday, but if not and I can help, just let me know.