So, my birthday was....well, unremarkable, I suppose? I hadn't got any expectations for it being amazing, so I guess Im not disappointed. It was tricky though. Both parents and sister are emotionally volatile right now, so I was left to diffuse any arguments that started up. Not exactly what I wanted to do on my Birthday.
After seeing my family for all of 3 and a half hours whilst we ate, they all went to bed by 8-30. Leaving me alone downstairs.

Despite having people in the house, I have felt utterly alone all week, more so last night.

Im now sat, alone, downstairs, because dad has gone out form some reason or another, not that I blame him, he is allowed to have time to himself today, since it is the funeral later today, and mom, I think she is working in the morning, then coming home for the funeral.

But yeah, day yesterday, meh...I know it comes with ages, less stuff happening, but Im not someone who usually goes out and throws huge parties, masses of friends and family ECT....but it was...yeah. Lonely.

Today - as I said, Funeral later on. We've got that...parade in the limo to the place, despite it being against the deceased's wants, his wife insisted...then after being told it'll be the funeral then we can go home, but no. We are having 'tea and such' afterwards.

Oh and its raining.

Tl;dr

I honestly couldn't care much over the past few days...Thank you for any and all birthday wishes, despite my moods, I do appreciate them, I just cant muster the enthusiasm.