I'm back from my vacation with my boyfriend and his parents.

You know, I must say...

I hate one thing the most about leaving the mountains and having to come home. True, I missed my bed and my mom (somewhat) and my pets...
but...
Now, tomorrow when I wake up...it won't be because my boyfriend tapped my shoulder or gently held my hand. I won't be able to see his sweet face and beautiful eyes as soon as I open mine. I never knew how much I wanted to have that happen...and how badly I'll miss it...until now. I can't get to sit up and hug him and kiss his face in the morning before I have my coffee or even get out of bed. I'll miss that so much. I really hope, with all of my heart, that can happen again. These past two nights..getting to kiss my baby goodnight and good morning have been the absolute best times I've ever had.

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If you're reading this, darling, I want you to know how much those short but sweet moments really meant to me. It absolutely kills my heart to know I can't do that tonight, or tomorrow morning, or for many more nights and mornings to come. I can't wait until it can happen again, and I will love and remember every second of each time it can happen again. Because no matter how many times you gently take my hand or nudge my shoulder, it's not the same. It never can be. Because each moment I get to spend with you is completely new and exciting. I can't picture my life without you anymore. I hope I will never have to. I love you, sweetie. I hope you will forever stay by my side. <3