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Test of will
12 years ago
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I cannot bring myself to believe that this is the way it will end... Nor can I give up... I am balancing my own personal limbo on the tip of a 50. cal round that is my life...
It'll be ok.... Right?
It'll all work out.... Right?
It'll get better from here... Right?
Quit asking, the more you ask the more it hurts.... The more you care, the more it hurts... The more you want, The more it hurts... Is it really that hard? Is it really that bad? C'mon rob, quit being a pussy... Quit giving in to the pain... Go numb... Go hard for what goes hard for you....
But... But...
It is so worth the pain... It is so worth the effort... It is worth every moment of agony as you watch it slip farther... and farther... and farther away... It'll be ok?
Sure, thats what they say... But where do they say that this test, this trial will be next to lethal... Next to, heh... Yeah, lethal like never knowing where the bullet came from... that or knowing exactly where it came from and who sent it your way...
Its not like that...
Yes it is...
No, its fucking not....
Proof is in the pudding pussy...
.... No... I wont let it break me... I was chosen for a reason... For a purpose... Because I am what I am...
Never will I be the one to give without a fight, go hard or go home... Right?
"Sure..." Dont be so condescending... When it was you on the block you got another chance... and another... and another.... and another.... and another.... and another... until the chances were spent... until the host was ruined and bitter... And now you wonder why I am sad... Why I let it eat me... Because I will take on the punishment you have brought upon us, I will bear the consequences of the actions WE took...
No I am not innocent... But nor am I so fucking arrogant to think that what was done can be fixed with dick... Not this time jak... not this time...
"Forget that moment where I trusted you fully, as good as I am, you have made us a pariah... and now we live in question to those we wish to be around, under suspicion, under the microscope... Under the porch..."
And that is where we belong... Under the porch... barking at everything allowed inside but us...
"Take a nice big bite, its our shit sandwich, and im feeling like sharing..."
"Lets pretend that you're far away... lets say you write to me..." I cant even finish it... the words ring in my head like gunshots inside a glass bubble... I can just hope that the ricochet hits a main nerve...
Alpha... I need you... Please...
It'll be ok.... Right?
It'll all work out.... Right?
It'll get better from here... Right?
Quit asking, the more you ask the more it hurts.... The more you care, the more it hurts... The more you want, The more it hurts... Is it really that hard? Is it really that bad? C'mon rob, quit being a pussy... Quit giving in to the pain... Go numb... Go hard for what goes hard for you....
But... But...
It is so worth the pain... It is so worth the effort... It is worth every moment of agony as you watch it slip farther... and farther... and farther away... It'll be ok?
Sure, thats what they say... But where do they say that this test, this trial will be next to lethal... Next to, heh... Yeah, lethal like never knowing where the bullet came from... that or knowing exactly where it came from and who sent it your way...
Its not like that...
Yes it is...
No, its fucking not....
Proof is in the pudding pussy...
.... No... I wont let it break me... I was chosen for a reason... For a purpose... Because I am what I am...
Never will I be the one to give without a fight, go hard or go home... Right?
"Sure..." Dont be so condescending... When it was you on the block you got another chance... and another... and another.... and another.... and another.... and another... until the chances were spent... until the host was ruined and bitter... And now you wonder why I am sad... Why I let it eat me... Because I will take on the punishment you have brought upon us, I will bear the consequences of the actions WE took...
No I am not innocent... But nor am I so fucking arrogant to think that what was done can be fixed with dick... Not this time jak... not this time...
"Forget that moment where I trusted you fully, as good as I am, you have made us a pariah... and now we live in question to those we wish to be around, under suspicion, under the microscope... Under the porch..."
And that is where we belong... Under the porch... barking at everything allowed inside but us...
"Take a nice big bite, its our shit sandwich, and im feeling like sharing..."
"Lets pretend that you're far away... lets say you write to me..." I cant even finish it... the words ring in my head like gunshots inside a glass bubble... I can just hope that the ricochet hits a main nerve...
Alpha... I need you... Please...
Live in each moment.
You are now and always will be,
My one and only.
My alpha.
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