sorry for being gone so long but of course noone probably even noticed my absence, my computer caught a virus and i had to wipe my hard drive so i am just now getting everything running again.

Now here is the question i would pose to those of you that will read this if any, say you loved someone not just LOVED but someone you were willing to die for someone you could dedicate your life to forever and they knew it. When you left they turned around and went to you friend and they were happy and you had to deal with it because there was nothing you could do, and on a daily basis you saw or heard something that reminded you of the one you loved. When the one you loved talked to you they talk to you like you never had anything special like you never ment anything to them. I am having trouble believeing that there is anything in this world left for me, the one i loved crushed my heart and threw it in my face. I just don't know what to do anymore, I feel as though i am walking through the darkness alone and my candle is just about to burn out.

P.S. sorry if this depresses anyone i just feel the need to get this out of my system