I hate doing these things, but yeah... if people start feeling I'm growing distant or something, it's because life isn't going so great for me. I'm extremely scared about my future and trying to focus my time on things I think can help it.

I'm definitely feeling sorta on the edge of a great collapse. I'm not very strong, skilled, or smart so it's really hard to find esteem in myself or talent in a job. I'm not fully sure what to do or what decisions I should make. Plenty of folks have stepped up to offer an ear or whatever, but truth is, I'm too scared to take anyone up on those offers. I really would like to talk to someone, but a lot that's on me is really deep, hard stuff that tends to scare folks off. Kinda lost and alone, so I've been trying to focus on being solo and doing what I can.

Anyway, I totally don't mean to "vanish" on anyone. I just need to tend to some things and hopefully get my footing again.