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Frustration. Need a drink. Bleh. Derp.
12 years ago
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Life sure is annoying sometimes. No matter what good happens in it, there are 2 bad things that happen right after it that just screws everything up. It's getting really tiring how life functions, really fast.
I finally get a callback to Food Lion, I went in for the interview, I TOURED the work stations I'd be in for god's sake, then I find out I need a picture ID, which I thought my old ID would do, but nope, expired. So, no big deal, just go to the DMV and get another ID. Which takes days to deliver to my house, so now I'm going to be sitting here worried half to death that I'll be replaced by the time I finally get around to finally finishing my hiring process.
If I get screwed over on the only place that gave me a call back in 2 years, I'm going to lose it. Completely. I can't stand it, I quit school for this shit and I'm not getting anywhere in life for a car, or housing, or future, or anything.
Not to mention I feel like I am a literal burden on everyone I come in contact with, and I feel like people hate me for absolutely nothing. Every choice I make, always backfires because if i choose A, then person 1 gets mad with me, and if I choose B, person 2 gets pissed, and then I'm not happy because I can't fucking handle being torn between things, and it's stressful as hell on top of everything.
I even lost my passion for art because of this past year. I'm so tired of being the ass end of everything in life, when all I want are so simple, yet impossible due to the living "cost" of life. The past year and a half was hell to me, to the point of alcoholism, and it just never gets better. UGH. Fuck me.
Ranting is the only way I can get all this out without potentially hurting anyone, so forgive it. But life is seriously on the lowest point right now.
I finally get a callback to Food Lion, I went in for the interview, I TOURED the work stations I'd be in for god's sake, then I find out I need a picture ID, which I thought my old ID would do, but nope, expired. So, no big deal, just go to the DMV and get another ID. Which takes days to deliver to my house, so now I'm going to be sitting here worried half to death that I'll be replaced by the time I finally get around to finally finishing my hiring process.
If I get screwed over on the only place that gave me a call back in 2 years, I'm going to lose it. Completely. I can't stand it, I quit school for this shit and I'm not getting anywhere in life for a car, or housing, or future, or anything.
Not to mention I feel like I am a literal burden on everyone I come in contact with, and I feel like people hate me for absolutely nothing. Every choice I make, always backfires because if i choose A, then person 1 gets mad with me, and if I choose B, person 2 gets pissed, and then I'm not happy because I can't fucking handle being torn between things, and it's stressful as hell on top of everything.
I even lost my passion for art because of this past year. I'm so tired of being the ass end of everything in life, when all I want are so simple, yet impossible due to the living "cost" of life. The past year and a half was hell to me, to the point of alcoholism, and it just never gets better. UGH. Fuck me.
Ranting is the only way I can get all this out without potentially hurting anyone, so forgive it. But life is seriously on the lowest point right now.
