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My most sincere apology to everyone in this site
13 years ago
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I've been Wrong, I've been Down
And to the bottom of every bottle
These 5 words in my head screams "Are we having fun yet?"
I'm very sorry about the last journal. I heard it from someone at InkBunny.
I did found out that they won't ban critter porn, but then...I'm all depressed that this caused a drama on this site with a certain guy delivering me a seriously bad speech on how am I behaving. And you know what, he's right on how I acted on the recent days. So I will tell you about everything on how I acted.
I joined this site last 2007 and I was here until a lot of serious shit happened on my life, both of them were here in the internet and real life. During that course, I delivered a lot of promises that I thought I could keep, I said I could do it and I would make a lot of friends in the process. Truth to be told, half of those were done and some weren't actually made even making people angry. I lied to a lot of people just of that, and I lost a chunk of friends and watchers especially those who were very important. I also treat them like shit. So yes I am not a good friend and artist on that time and that carried on to this day. Regarding my own behavior, I think of myself as an idiot faggot, I think that I comment like crazy regarding sexy stuff. I did that to get attention, I like to seek some attention so I can be popular. I wanted to be famous quickly and actually risking on breaking a lot of people's promises. I just did that so I can be like those more popular artists here, no, not just here, but on dA, IB and now, Weasyl. Then I got carried away. And treated everyone as jerks.
I never understood everyone now, thought that they are just there to add on my list of watchers. I never noticed them. And never understood them all. I never understood....myself. I tried SOOOO HARD on improving my art that someone slapped me on the face on not trying hard on improving my attitude. Honestly, I never tried hard enough on being a good person, trying to stomp other people's opinions, art and liking. I never understand what they were feeling. I hid my anger over my smiling face and pretended I'm not mad to the world. Why is that? Because I thought everyone is mad at me....well there are jerks. And there are people that I can't always please with my work and people who were still had a grudge against my attitude. I still know they're mad at me after all these years, been through a lot of arguments, fights and rants.
I won't be forgiven this time nor wanting any sympathy or d'awwwss, I don't deserve those right now! I admit I did the worst shit ever in my life, being a bogus jerk. I've been a bad person, I'm this rotten and I can't face anyone after this nor after all the damages I caused. I'm this depressed on what I did and the damages I did to my watchers, friend and everyone I know will not be undone.
I'm wiping out my submissions now and deciding to move in another account if I got my shit together.
And to the bottom of every bottle
These 5 words in my head screams "Are we having fun yet?"
I'm very sorry about the last journal. I heard it from someone at InkBunny.
I did found out that they won't ban critter porn, but then...I'm all depressed that this caused a drama on this site with a certain guy delivering me a seriously bad speech on how am I behaving. And you know what, he's right on how I acted on the recent days. So I will tell you about everything on how I acted.
I joined this site last 2007 and I was here until a lot of serious shit happened on my life, both of them were here in the internet and real life. During that course, I delivered a lot of promises that I thought I could keep, I said I could do it and I would make a lot of friends in the process. Truth to be told, half of those were done and some weren't actually made even making people angry. I lied to a lot of people just of that, and I lost a chunk of friends and watchers especially those who were very important. I also treat them like shit. So yes I am not a good friend and artist on that time and that carried on to this day. Regarding my own behavior, I think of myself as an idiot faggot, I think that I comment like crazy regarding sexy stuff. I did that to get attention, I like to seek some attention so I can be popular. I wanted to be famous quickly and actually risking on breaking a lot of people's promises. I just did that so I can be like those more popular artists here, no, not just here, but on dA, IB and now, Weasyl. Then I got carried away. And treated everyone as jerks.
I never understood everyone now, thought that they are just there to add on my list of watchers. I never noticed them. And never understood them all. I never understood....myself. I tried SOOOO HARD on improving my art that someone slapped me on the face on not trying hard on improving my attitude. Honestly, I never tried hard enough on being a good person, trying to stomp other people's opinions, art and liking. I never understand what they were feeling. I hid my anger over my smiling face and pretended I'm not mad to the world. Why is that? Because I thought everyone is mad at me....well there are jerks. And there are people that I can't always please with my work and people who were still had a grudge against my attitude. I still know they're mad at me after all these years, been through a lot of arguments, fights and rants.
I won't be forgiven this time nor wanting any sympathy or d'awwwss, I don't deserve those right now! I admit I did the worst shit ever in my life, being a bogus jerk. I've been a bad person, I'm this rotten and I can't face anyone after this nor after all the damages I caused. I'm this depressed on what I did and the damages I did to my watchers, friend and everyone I know will not be undone.
I'm wiping out my submissions now and deciding to move in another account if I got my shit together.
avoids this problems
You are NOT bad person I may not know that we'll but I know that you are not a bad person. We all make mistakes.
This is how my first day was like here.>>> When I first singed up here I upload stuff I did now own but I did not read the FA rules so people got very mad at me but I told them what happened and 2 out of 3 forgave me.
That told me I was stilling and when they told I never felt so bad.
The one that did not here me out made me feel rejected and like I was a very bad person. I tryed to tell that person but he/she blocked me.
I told the one that owns the art I was very sorry about what I did to him and told him how bad I felt about doing that to him. How we will talk every now and again he was very understanding and nice about it and I felt so welcome here by him.
They told me
Sorry type o