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14 years ago
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This is more of a self journal, so you don't have to read it if you don't want to.
Been at Tokala's for approaching a week now I think, and I've had a really great time so far, monged around with the Chinchilla's and Ferrets, watched the Red Arrows and survived the riots, as well as churned out many hours playing Videogames, and we're currently working through watching Soul Eater.
Still got a fair while here and such, but just now, something clicked.
I really miss Shadow...like...REALLY miss him.
He's over at EF right now, and I know he's gunna have a really good time. I'm still a bit sad that I couldn't go, because I assed up at something I cruised through second time round, but that's in the past now, what's happened has happened.
I just long for him. It's been a while since I've pined something cronic like this for him. I just want him to hold me, keep me warm, whisper sweet nothings into my ear. The world becomes so much more barable when I'm with him.
Since I last saw him, which was only a couple of weeks ago, my thoughts were only ever on 'When can I see him again'. Truth is, the time isn't going to go fast enough. I ache so much, I just want him. I miss him more than ever, and it's only been one day without contact. I've gone much longer before, but this time, it feels so much harder.
I know this is most likely going to keep me awake tonight, and I can forsee a few sleepless nights because of it again. I think this'll be my 'depressions' slipping back in once more. But who knows. I might find something to distract myself with for the most part. It just means evenings, when everything starts to wind down, they're just going to be difficult again.
So much going through my mind, makes me think of him. It's rediculous, I can pretty much relate all the thoughts going through there to some experience we've shared in our relationship...I can't wait for the day that we'll be together properly, in the same house, and not these tedious 4-5 hour train journeys away just for a weekend of attention, and then having to survive the weeks and weeks between.
I miss you, my darling. Please come back safe.
ShadowSani <3
Been at Tokala's for approaching a week now I think, and I've had a really great time so far, monged around with the Chinchilla's and Ferrets, watched the Red Arrows and survived the riots, as well as churned out many hours playing Videogames, and we're currently working through watching Soul Eater.
Still got a fair while here and such, but just now, something clicked.
I really miss Shadow...like...REALLY miss him.
He's over at EF right now, and I know he's gunna have a really good time. I'm still a bit sad that I couldn't go, because I assed up at something I cruised through second time round, but that's in the past now, what's happened has happened.
I just long for him. It's been a while since I've pined something cronic like this for him. I just want him to hold me, keep me warm, whisper sweet nothings into my ear. The world becomes so much more barable when I'm with him.
Since I last saw him, which was only a couple of weeks ago, my thoughts were only ever on 'When can I see him again'. Truth is, the time isn't going to go fast enough. I ache so much, I just want him. I miss him more than ever, and it's only been one day without contact. I've gone much longer before, but this time, it feels so much harder.
I know this is most likely going to keep me awake tonight, and I can forsee a few sleepless nights because of it again. I think this'll be my 'depressions' slipping back in once more. But who knows. I might find something to distract myself with for the most part. It just means evenings, when everything starts to wind down, they're just going to be difficult again.
So much going through my mind, makes me think of him. It's rediculous, I can pretty much relate all the thoughts going through there to some experience we've shared in our relationship...I can't wait for the day that we'll be together properly, in the same house, and not these tedious 4-5 hour train journeys away just for a weekend of attention, and then having to survive the weeks and weeks between.
I miss you, my darling. Please come back safe.
ShadowSani <3
Grovajl
~grovajl
Awwww foxy! I will go to the next one and we can meet next year, it is so unfortunate that you could not go too :< I wanted to go this year but could not. Next time I will come with my mate too ^^ We can all huggle and snuggle cutely then <3 u know I care about you, but I still miss my own internet connection so I do not have chance to chat more often :/ *huggles*
