Well, hi all. I know I haven't really posted in a while, I have been hoping things will get better... but they seem to be getting worse first. 2 weekends ago I went to Regina to pick up a load of stuff from my parents house to help my sister move into her new place. About 30km outside of Regina on the way back, my truck -died-. I couldnt get it to turn over or anything. I had to get it towed back to my parents place, borrowed my mom's car and drove back to Edmonton. My parents got my truck into a shop and have been attempting to get it fixed. Finally yesterday I got the call that my truck is finally in good running shape again, but I dont know the bill yet. I need to get back to Regina now to pick it back up. A week and a bit later (about a week ago now) my laptop -died-. It won't start, turn on, nothing. I am currently borrowing Tabbers computer. Come new years I can have one of my dad's office's old Macs, but that means switching platforms, getting a desk and waiting. Now today... Well... I totaled my work van.

I was going south on Highway 2 in Leduc (just outside of Edmonton) at about 100km/h. When I drove over an overpass I hit a patch of black ice. The van started to swerve to the left and I tried to steer out of it but to no avail. The van would not change momentum or direction at all. It went off the side of the road (-just- after the overpass ended) through the ditch and hit the wooden posts for the guardrail for the oncoming traffic. I spun counter clockwise hitting 4 of the wooden posts and rested facing the highway again. The van is dead. It bled its radiator blood out.

As well last weekend the medicine I am on (Effexor XR an SSRI) stopped working properly. Not in terms of mood control, but other effects. I think my body is starting to reject it. I start going through withdrawal after about 18 hours now, with headaches pulsing throughout the day. It makes it difficult for me to sleep continuously. As well towards the end of the day I get 'mental hiccups' as I like to put it. I have gaps in thought and concentration and feel a strange pulse in my head and ears.

Bleh! I want things to start working out again. =S