Been a while last tim i made a journal im just sick like everyone else around , filled with anger hate and even in the most deep something that made me puke in this week october 14 my birthday useless thing , many stupid wishes from ppl who i know , i dont mind is just a day but in a way its made me puke , so here im writing again something that bothers me , family pfff hipocrit faces was of time i had yers without feel any kind of emotion about thems i cant feel any in fact no hate no love nothing just an huge place empity its interesting bring me peace but as same time ppl who say they care and worry , its weird almost all the year for show that useless feelings and in the only chance they have is just in a day where i just born , i dont care a year more a year close to the dead , anyways a year more more clease from dead isnt bad after all.