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🔹 I'm back, and I will continue drawing. 🔹
3 weeks ago
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🔹 I'm back, and I will continue drawing. 🔹
I was busy with university exams and dealing with my mental health.
My new good psychiatrist finally confirmed for me: AuDHD (autism + ADHD), bipolar disorder, and cPTSD. It was extremely difficult for me to accept my autism; I cried all week because I had thought my whole life that I could "fix" myself and be "normal." But I can't fix the way my brain has worked since birth. I don't need to be fixed; I am already okay and have managed to adapt to life to the greatest extent possible. I am glad that I can finally better understand what has been and is happening to me throughout my life.
Also, as more good news, I was able to move closer to remission for my cPTSD because I finally accepted and loved myself, truly felt it. Nightmares still make me wake up in terror and numbness every day, flashbacks are still there, I still don't always feel my body due to depersonalization, but now I know exactly what I will do with all of this – spoiler: get treatment.
I also found a new psychologist and was able to secure a discount on sessions because my income has been particularly unstable lately, which I will also be fixing soon. I also recently had my first full-blown hypomanic episode, which lasted several days; now I'm in a downswing, meaning a depressive state, but I also know what to do about it. I won't give up.
Take care of yourselves, you only live once.
I was busy with university exams and dealing with my mental health.
My new good psychiatrist finally confirmed for me: AuDHD (autism + ADHD), bipolar disorder, and cPTSD. It was extremely difficult for me to accept my autism; I cried all week because I had thought my whole life that I could "fix" myself and be "normal." But I can't fix the way my brain has worked since birth. I don't need to be fixed; I am already okay and have managed to adapt to life to the greatest extent possible. I am glad that I can finally better understand what has been and is happening to me throughout my life.
Also, as more good news, I was able to move closer to remission for my cPTSD because I finally accepted and loved myself, truly felt it. Nightmares still make me wake up in terror and numbness every day, flashbacks are still there, I still don't always feel my body due to depersonalization, but now I know exactly what I will do with all of this – spoiler: get treatment.
I also found a new psychologist and was able to secure a discount on sessions because my income has been particularly unstable lately, which I will also be fixing soon. I also recently had my first full-blown hypomanic episode, which lasted several days; now I'm in a downswing, meaning a depressive state, but I also know what to do about it. I won't give up.
Take care of yourselves, you only live once.
