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I don't know...
2 weeks ago
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I feel like the start of this year has had to many ups and downs and it's been getting to me a bit to much lately.
Work hasn't been going quite as well as I'd like it to, feeling the pressure of work despite most of it being well outside of my control. Getting lectures from to many managers who aren't on the same page, who are being pushed by higher ups who are only in it because stock prices are through the roof and they just want more money which will never get paid back for any extra effort put in (damn AI bubble thats going to burst eventually and who knows if I'll still have a job when it does)
Having friends I've known for years who I thought I was close to, seeming to loose more interest in even just normal conversations. Constantly being reassured 'I'd love to do ______ with you' and then watch em run off to their own friends for the next few weeks because they just don't really seem to care anymore. Even some (they know who they are) I've talked to directly to tell them I'm upset about not hearing from them for months at a time but really only getting back a "I don't know what to say".
I just don't know anymore.
Just to many things that seem to compile into just the same ending of feeling like people don't really care about me anymore.
A select few friends are still around and checking up and they know who they are. You few mean a lot to me and have been helping me to keep it together when it feels like no one cares anymore.
Work hasn't been going quite as well as I'd like it to, feeling the pressure of work despite most of it being well outside of my control. Getting lectures from to many managers who aren't on the same page, who are being pushed by higher ups who are only in it because stock prices are through the roof and they just want more money which will never get paid back for any extra effort put in (damn AI bubble thats going to burst eventually and who knows if I'll still have a job when it does)
Having friends I've known for years who I thought I was close to, seeming to loose more interest in even just normal conversations. Constantly being reassured 'I'd love to do ______ with you' and then watch em run off to their own friends for the next few weeks because they just don't really seem to care anymore. Even some (they know who they are) I've talked to directly to tell them I'm upset about not hearing from them for months at a time but really only getting back a "I don't know what to say".
I just don't know anymore.
Just to many things that seem to compile into just the same ending of feeling like people don't really care about me anymore.
A select few friends are still around and checking up and they know who they are. You few mean a lot to me and have been helping me to keep it together when it feels like no one cares anymore.
I can feel it, and it is actually a very similar situation with me. Though friends still come around and contact me every now and then. I've none the less a solid circle of people I usually spend my time with, wether it be coworkers or friends from other community circles.
Every furry and their mother has their own personal discord/tg group to hang with friends so there is little reason to go to individual friends when you can instead hang out with all of them at the same time. ><
Makes it much harder to be a more introverted individual that's for sure.
Literally just ban yourself from social media for one day a week and you'll find yourself reaching out to friends in those hours instead. (using the royal you here). We as a people really need to take control of our lives and removes ourselves from so called "addictive media", news, facebook, instagram, youtube etc. Find time for friends and family.
Its those goshed darned algorithms
But yeah, sometimes it is just a good idea to just cut it all off for a while and just go cold-turkey if only to pull back on the constant desire to check in on what everyone is/isn't doing. But it would still be nice to feel like certain friends would actually notice/care when I did take longer breaks for sanity's purpose.
It is what it is... just need to find other things to do outside of the world of the computer more often ^^
I definitely have difficulty reconnecting with frens though. That feeling of not wanting to pester them, or not feeling like you've got much of substance to say, prevents me from saying much unless its been months and I feel a "yooo how've you been?" should be said.
I really do wonder if that whole stocks chasing will collapse on itself one day. Ungodly amounts of money sucking the Earth dry. Far from sustainable, and especially with this AI bubble... Love the memes about it - but it certainly doesn't excuse this WTF situation
I'd ask what you do for work but I imagine that's private. It is nonetheless terrifying what the AI bubble pop will do to the economy - even if it takes down AI along with it... So much money pooled into this blackhole that's gon implode on itself...
Hope you'll be alright regardless :o