I haven't had a chance to sit down to reply to the responses you all shared, and that's something I very much want to do because I was honestly blown away by the kindness and support. But in the mean time I at least want to say that I read all of them, I cried a real big cry while I did, and I'm saving them to a folder for myself to look at whenever I find myself in that dark hearted space. I was so terrified to share those thoughts in that journal, I had no idea what the response would be. I'm just... truly thankful for all of you who took the time to respond or send me private messages of support, and to those who read and didn't respond, but let me have space in their minds for just a moment.

Thank you, so very much.