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Looking back at 2025
3 months ago
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Boy, it's been a while since I've written one of these. I don't recall writing one for 2024 - not since I left deviantArt a while back. Since I'm now here, now's as good a time as any to dive in, and restart these, eh?
So, 2025. It's not a secret that this year in general has been bad. I feel like most of us are saying this about most of the last 10 years - the situation in the world sucks. You don't need me to tell you that, you've probably figured that out for yourself by now. So instead, let's talk about my 2025, and what I experienced... which, uh. Of all the years of my life, 2025 sure was one of them. I can divide this year up in three parts - January to March, April to August, and then September until now. The first part was mediocre. The second was one of the worst times of my life. The third was... actually pretty good. It's hard to explain without going into detail, so let's just start at the beginning.
January to March
This year began on a sour note. I had been fired from my job a month earlier - welcome to working as a consultant. The goal was originally to work through the consultancy for a full year, after which I'd be handed over to the company I worked at fully. Alas, they ran out of work, and I was let go. Still can't help but feel like there's more to it, but they never told me anything more specific than me costing too much for the work I was doing. So that sucked. I got to visit my boyfriend just before Christmas though, and I was still riding decently high off that. So things started out alright; got back to job hunting, interviewed at a few companies, kept telling myself that things were going to turn out fine... although, even around this time, I was getting anxious about my lacking work experience, and feeling like I was falling behind my old classmates at uni, who often had been working at the same spot for over a year since graduating.
Ended up finding a job 40 minutes away through a former classmate, actually. At first, it went okay... unfortunately, it quickly ended up turning sour. Got a lot of bad vibes from their culture (even though it was a tiny company, they were very traditional. Kept complaining about me not wearing the typical blue shirt and grayish trousers that look 'clean' in an office environment, as well as me not wanting to cut my hair). It got toxic and they ended up dropping me after a month. Back to square one it was.
April to August
And so I was right back into the shit, falling straight into a depression I hadn't been in since Covid. Here I was, unemployed, 25/26 years old, feeling like I didnt have a future, unable to do much to enjoy life. I was originally planning to make vacation plans to Finland, meet up with a friend and my old boss at my internship place again. Sadly, that couldn't happen now. Unemployment is genuinely crushing. You can't do anything without feeling like you're wasting time, that the clock is ticking, that you have to spend your time applying to places or getting a job ASAP - good luck explaining to companies why there's a gap on your resume that's bigger than the time you've worked.
What made it even worse for me was seeing how my friends were doing, around this time. So many of my friends had planned meetups, were hanging out at cons, or going to amusement parks... and it felt soulcrushing. I felt like I had stopped living. I felt, genuinely, like a fucking loser. The little breaks I got were only partially enjoyable - Got to attend my first comic con in May just before the depression seriously kicked in, which was fun. Still have some souvenirs from that sitting on a shelf I built afterwards. Met up with my boyfriend in June, and the whole trip... sure, it was fun. But I kept feeling like shit about my situation, and it just spoiled the whole damn thing. In a way, I partially ruined it for my BF by being so sour, and that's something I still have regrets over.
In June, I thought I'd finally found the road out - a traineeship to work for a reputable organisation. Would start in August. Would be getting all sorts of certificates, and they explicitly stated that they were looking for people who wanted to be there long term. Sounded too good to be true... and sure enough, it was. The week before the start, I got a phone call. Apparently, the organisation had fucked up big time, and hadn't actually properly informed all of their departments that they'd be getting trainees. So everything was put on hold, we were told there's a high chance nothing was going to come of it. Just like that, my enthusiasm was sucked right out of my body again. I actually had to cry after this phone call. It felt like a stab to the gut.
By some luck, I ended up in touch with a corporate recruiter only a few days after this. Lo and behold, it was a larger company, it wasn't a scam, and I ended up getting hired by them. Directly, no consultancy involved. And as of right now, I'm still working there.
September to December
Now that I was employed once again, life finally became better. Back to work, building on my future - ended up making it past the first month and I'm building up skills. Spent more time around friends, and got to plan vacations again: First was attending my first furcon, and second was visiting my boyfriend again before Christmas. And, aside from having fever symptoms a few days before the flight there, I managed to dodge the December curse, this year.
And that's the year in brief. Not all of it was bad, believe it or not:
- Comic Con, like I said.
- After drifting outside of the community for years, I finally admitted I was a furry in the middle of the year.
- Ended up becoming friends with a few furries who live nearby.
- Made this fA account.
- Saw my boyfriend twice. The second time, we actually went to another Comic Con, only on the other side of the planet.
- Made more friends online.
- Became a Deltarune fan.
- Made lots of progress on my fanfic
And so on. In hindsight, maybe I worried too much. But still, I'm glad that horrible time is over, and hopefully, 2026 will prove to be a much better year.
Finally, I'd like to give a thank you to all of my friends - I'm not going to name names, you know who you are. But you've been a guiding light in an otherwise dark year. Thank you all.
So, 2025. It's not a secret that this year in general has been bad. I feel like most of us are saying this about most of the last 10 years - the situation in the world sucks. You don't need me to tell you that, you've probably figured that out for yourself by now. So instead, let's talk about my 2025, and what I experienced... which, uh. Of all the years of my life, 2025 sure was one of them. I can divide this year up in three parts - January to March, April to August, and then September until now. The first part was mediocre. The second was one of the worst times of my life. The third was... actually pretty good. It's hard to explain without going into detail, so let's just start at the beginning.
January to March
This year began on a sour note. I had been fired from my job a month earlier - welcome to working as a consultant. The goal was originally to work through the consultancy for a full year, after which I'd be handed over to the company I worked at fully. Alas, they ran out of work, and I was let go. Still can't help but feel like there's more to it, but they never told me anything more specific than me costing too much for the work I was doing. So that sucked. I got to visit my boyfriend just before Christmas though, and I was still riding decently high off that. So things started out alright; got back to job hunting, interviewed at a few companies, kept telling myself that things were going to turn out fine... although, even around this time, I was getting anxious about my lacking work experience, and feeling like I was falling behind my old classmates at uni, who often had been working at the same spot for over a year since graduating.
Ended up finding a job 40 minutes away through a former classmate, actually. At first, it went okay... unfortunately, it quickly ended up turning sour. Got a lot of bad vibes from their culture (even though it was a tiny company, they were very traditional. Kept complaining about me not wearing the typical blue shirt and grayish trousers that look 'clean' in an office environment, as well as me not wanting to cut my hair). It got toxic and they ended up dropping me after a month. Back to square one it was.
April to August
And so I was right back into the shit, falling straight into a depression I hadn't been in since Covid. Here I was, unemployed, 25/26 years old, feeling like I didnt have a future, unable to do much to enjoy life. I was originally planning to make vacation plans to Finland, meet up with a friend and my old boss at my internship place again. Sadly, that couldn't happen now. Unemployment is genuinely crushing. You can't do anything without feeling like you're wasting time, that the clock is ticking, that you have to spend your time applying to places or getting a job ASAP - good luck explaining to companies why there's a gap on your resume that's bigger than the time you've worked.
What made it even worse for me was seeing how my friends were doing, around this time. So many of my friends had planned meetups, were hanging out at cons, or going to amusement parks... and it felt soulcrushing. I felt like I had stopped living. I felt, genuinely, like a fucking loser. The little breaks I got were only partially enjoyable - Got to attend my first comic con in May just before the depression seriously kicked in, which was fun. Still have some souvenirs from that sitting on a shelf I built afterwards. Met up with my boyfriend in June, and the whole trip... sure, it was fun. But I kept feeling like shit about my situation, and it just spoiled the whole damn thing. In a way, I partially ruined it for my BF by being so sour, and that's something I still have regrets over.
In June, I thought I'd finally found the road out - a traineeship to work for a reputable organisation. Would start in August. Would be getting all sorts of certificates, and they explicitly stated that they were looking for people who wanted to be there long term. Sounded too good to be true... and sure enough, it was. The week before the start, I got a phone call. Apparently, the organisation had fucked up big time, and hadn't actually properly informed all of their departments that they'd be getting trainees. So everything was put on hold, we were told there's a high chance nothing was going to come of it. Just like that, my enthusiasm was sucked right out of my body again. I actually had to cry after this phone call. It felt like a stab to the gut.
By some luck, I ended up in touch with a corporate recruiter only a few days after this. Lo and behold, it was a larger company, it wasn't a scam, and I ended up getting hired by them. Directly, no consultancy involved. And as of right now, I'm still working there.
September to December
Now that I was employed once again, life finally became better. Back to work, building on my future - ended up making it past the first month and I'm building up skills. Spent more time around friends, and got to plan vacations again: First was attending my first furcon, and second was visiting my boyfriend again before Christmas. And, aside from having fever symptoms a few days before the flight there, I managed to dodge the December curse, this year.
And that's the year in brief. Not all of it was bad, believe it or not:
- Comic Con, like I said.
- After drifting outside of the community for years, I finally admitted I was a furry in the middle of the year.
- Ended up becoming friends with a few furries who live nearby.
- Made this fA account.
- Saw my boyfriend twice. The second time, we actually went to another Comic Con, only on the other side of the planet.
- Made more friends online.
- Became a Deltarune fan.
- Made lots of progress on my fanfic
And so on. In hindsight, maybe I worried too much. But still, I'm glad that horrible time is over, and hopefully, 2026 will prove to be a much better year.
Finally, I'd like to give a thank you to all of my friends - I'm not going to name names, you know who you are. But you've been a guiding light in an otherwise dark year. Thank you all.
