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Some Words to close 2025
2 months ago
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Hello there everyone !!!
Here I am, doing my usual « End of the Year Journal » to close off 2025…
But this time, I felt that I needed to go a lil deeper on my mental state for the past 2 years or so…
I haven’t posted much for some times and I think I could maybe share a little more with you on the reasons for this…
It kinda started back in the later half of 2022, where I was contacted by the partner of a Youtuber ; I was contacted to draw designs for T-shirts to be used on their online shop…
Before anyone could ask, I’ll reassure you : YES ! I was paid for all of this ; paid well and on time.
And I am/was on good terms with those people by the end.
It’s just that the all project took WAY WAAAY longer than planned… to the point that it took MONTHS to finish all of them…
And in the end, those designs were never used.
I suppose it wasn’t too bad, since -Again- I was paid for my work and do not put any blame on my contractor!!!
Nonono… The issue came more about how the all project took a lot out of me (mentally and physically) and interrupted ALL other works that I was doing during that time !!! (Commissions or otherwise)…
I felt like I had let down my other clients and people around me…
Plus, going back to works you left unfinished MONTHS ago was really hard, stucking me in some sort of « creative stress muck », killing my work flow and my confidence...
Some of my watchers may recall me having some « Low Energy issues » back in 2023-2024 ? this was pretty much why….
The all situation wasn’t helped by quite the streak of bad luck and Real world issues (Got sick all summer 2024, the moving to a new home with my familly in the end of 2024 ; just to mention a few)
And then, around March 2025… After failing to complete a gift drawing for my sister, I kinda « Snapped » …
Not sure what to call it… « Burnout » … « Nervous breakdown » …
Whatever… it was bad…
It took me months before I dared to use a pen to doodle anything and today I am still feeling quite stressed and bummed down in general…
I needed to take a break and see a therapist and only recently, I am starting to get better…
I started doing research/ writing for personal projects of mine (I might share some online when I feel ready) ;
I am taking more care of my physical health ;
I even started an herbarium, if just to make my own references for when I draw plants…
I certainly hope I didn’t worry you or bummed down the End of the year mood with all of this…
It is something I felt I needed to unpack to all of you, even just for transparency’s sake…
I feel like I took many steps forward to put myself together ; Not just to get back to art but also to have a healthier life in general…
And I certainly hope to actually MEAN all of this, THIS TIME around…
Even if my first new projects may be fan-arts or simple stuffs, I am still planning drawing once again…
Who knows what could be next ?
Getting back to painting miniatures ?
Re-opening commissions ?
Not sure about the « when » though… I personally hope to do so by Summer of 2026, maybe before if I can…
Plus, I’ll probably have to revise my pricing and the way I handle them before that…
I suppose I will announce it when the time comes…
Until then, I think all is left to say is to thank the people who are still watching/ supporting me even after this unvolontary haitus on my part.
I hope to see you all in 2026 and that this year will finally be my time to shine…
Have a Happy New Year everyone !!!
Hope to see you all soon…
Here I am, doing my usual « End of the Year Journal » to close off 2025…
But this time, I felt that I needed to go a lil deeper on my mental state for the past 2 years or so…
I haven’t posted much for some times and I think I could maybe share a little more with you on the reasons for this…
It kinda started back in the later half of 2022, where I was contacted by the partner of a Youtuber ; I was contacted to draw designs for T-shirts to be used on their online shop…
Before anyone could ask, I’ll reassure you : YES ! I was paid for all of this ; paid well and on time.
And I am/was on good terms with those people by the end.
It’s just that the all project took WAY WAAAY longer than planned… to the point that it took MONTHS to finish all of them…
And in the end, those designs were never used.
I suppose it wasn’t too bad, since -Again- I was paid for my work and do not put any blame on my contractor!!!
Nonono… The issue came more about how the all project took a lot out of me (mentally and physically) and interrupted ALL other works that I was doing during that time !!! (Commissions or otherwise)…
I felt like I had let down my other clients and people around me…
Plus, going back to works you left unfinished MONTHS ago was really hard, stucking me in some sort of « creative stress muck », killing my work flow and my confidence...
Some of my watchers may recall me having some « Low Energy issues » back in 2023-2024 ? this was pretty much why….
The all situation wasn’t helped by quite the streak of bad luck and Real world issues (Got sick all summer 2024, the moving to a new home with my familly in the end of 2024 ; just to mention a few)
And then, around March 2025… After failing to complete a gift drawing for my sister, I kinda « Snapped » …
Not sure what to call it… « Burnout » … « Nervous breakdown » …
Whatever… it was bad…
It took me months before I dared to use a pen to doodle anything and today I am still feeling quite stressed and bummed down in general…
I needed to take a break and see a therapist and only recently, I am starting to get better…
I started doing research/ writing for personal projects of mine (I might share some online when I feel ready) ;
I am taking more care of my physical health ;
I even started an herbarium, if just to make my own references for when I draw plants…
I certainly hope I didn’t worry you or bummed down the End of the year mood with all of this…
It is something I felt I needed to unpack to all of you, even just for transparency’s sake…
I feel like I took many steps forward to put myself together ; Not just to get back to art but also to have a healthier life in general…
And I certainly hope to actually MEAN all of this, THIS TIME around…
Even if my first new projects may be fan-arts or simple stuffs, I am still planning drawing once again…
Who knows what could be next ?
Getting back to painting miniatures ?
Re-opening commissions ?
Not sure about the « when » though… I personally hope to do so by Summer of 2026, maybe before if I can…
Plus, I’ll probably have to revise my pricing and the way I handle them before that…
I suppose I will announce it when the time comes…
Until then, I think all is left to say is to thank the people who are still watching/ supporting me even after this unvolontary haitus on my part.
I hope to see you all in 2026 and that this year will finally be my time to shine…
Have a Happy New Year everyone !!!
Hope to see you all soon…
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