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Uploaded My First Song - Big Updates Too!
2 months ago
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I've been teaching myself how to make music. I started by doing a cover of "Endless Possibility" from Sonic Unleashed. I think it turned out pretty good for a first try. I hope you like it!
Now, for some updates:
Things have been really bad and sucky in general. Not just for me, but for everyone. So I really, REALLY don't wanna add to that stress with the BS I've been going through. I'll make this brief.
I've been seeing a lot of specialists regarding my hands and back. However, we keep hitting the lottery for "shitty doctors who don't care about the patient." So far, every single doctor they've sent me to has been a massive dickhead. They've been rude to me, they've been half asleep and not wanting to talk to me, they've insulted my psyche, and stupidest of all, they've quite literally, no exaggeration, said to me: "Nothing is wrong with you. Let's operate."
Like what the fuck. All my general practitioner and myself want, is for someone to identify what the fuck is wrong with my hands, and give us a damn name, so we can pursue what comes next. I don't even care if its debilitating or not. I just want to know what the hell is going on.
These people have seriously said to my face "you're lying, you're making this up, you're not hurt, but lets do physical therapy and an operation." FOR WHAT?? Like if nothing's wrong, WHY do they keep suggesting we operate?? I'm so fuckin frustrated with it. I haven't been treated like a human by practically any of these "professionals," and it has done significant harm to my mental health. It's been ROUGH. I feel like a crazy person. I draw, have my hands hurt a ton, then get told "nah you're lying, you're not in pain." I've never been so gaslit in my whole damn life, and I just want to scream. It's like nobody gives a single shit and I'm so mad about it.
I have no idea what's going to happen after the return to work deadline hits. I have no idea how me and my doctor are going to navigate this. Regardless of what happens, it won't be good. I'm going to get absolutely screwed out of everything, and lose thousands of dollars in medical bills. I'm so stressed out by it that I have to take one day at a time. Do only what is immediately in front of me. Otherwise I'll shut down. It's awful, and I hate it. I wish I had good news, but living in the USA is hell, so we can't have good things.
BUT THERE IS POSITIVE NEWS:
In reaction to all this BS, I said to myself, "ok, sure! Alright! If I'm not hurt, let me draw and do everything as normal then. Fuck you." So I did. I started drawing again. I started doing WAY more art projects in general sense I've been out of work. I've been doing a TON of shit. Do my hands and back hurt? Oh 100% it fuckin sucks. I will turn the next person who tells me I'm not hurt into dust. BUT it's motivated me to get off my damn ass and finally start doing things again. Slowly but surely, I'm getting back into the swing of making things.
If you've been waiting for me to post things, waiting for me to do anything in general for a long time, I'm happy to say that your wait is almost over. For Christmas, my very sweet friend
BeaverBubbles gave me a dedicated scanner that I had my eyes on. This thing is nuts, and can scan images in VERY high resolutions. I'm going to use this to scan and upload a shit ton of stuff. This will be part of finishing the biggest task I've been wanting to do for ages: Completely reorganize and re-manage my computer, database, and art galleries.
Shit is going to start moving soon. Now that I've got my two big projects out of the way, I can focus on getting my shit together in more ways than one. I do have another video in the works, but it's not the current priority.
I plan on doing a lot of stuff to make up for the lack of posting and activity. I want to swing back in a big way. I'm motivated by not only a desire to make things in general, but now also spite. I don't care anymore. Life sucks and is too short, I'm gonna do what I want. I'll talk more about this another time, but for now, just know that there's a LOT goin on in this fox brain of mine.
I need to stop rambling so I will leave you with this: Soon I will be scanning and uploading an art pack containing the very first vore drawings I ever did. I used to draw kinky stuff on lil notebook pages, then hide them away in a shoe box. This was waaaay back, many years ago before I even had my DeviantArt. Stuff from before I even posted online. I'm going to call it something like the "origins pack." I want to share with you all my really bad but completely sincere art, because I think that's a neat thing to do. I also plan on making it free.
If you got sketch commissions from me many years ago, you'll get your art very soon. That has been something I think about EVERY single day. I really do, and I hate how long its taken me to finish them. I'm gonna make good on all this shit and I'm going to make you smile and aaaaaaaaaa
Love yall <3
Now, for some updates:
Things have been really bad and sucky in general. Not just for me, but for everyone. So I really, REALLY don't wanna add to that stress with the BS I've been going through. I'll make this brief.
I've been seeing a lot of specialists regarding my hands and back. However, we keep hitting the lottery for "shitty doctors who don't care about the patient." So far, every single doctor they've sent me to has been a massive dickhead. They've been rude to me, they've been half asleep and not wanting to talk to me, they've insulted my psyche, and stupidest of all, they've quite literally, no exaggeration, said to me: "Nothing is wrong with you. Let's operate."
Like what the fuck. All my general practitioner and myself want, is for someone to identify what the fuck is wrong with my hands, and give us a damn name, so we can pursue what comes next. I don't even care if its debilitating or not. I just want to know what the hell is going on.
These people have seriously said to my face "you're lying, you're making this up, you're not hurt, but lets do physical therapy and an operation." FOR WHAT?? Like if nothing's wrong, WHY do they keep suggesting we operate?? I'm so fuckin frustrated with it. I haven't been treated like a human by practically any of these "professionals," and it has done significant harm to my mental health. It's been ROUGH. I feel like a crazy person. I draw, have my hands hurt a ton, then get told "nah you're lying, you're not in pain." I've never been so gaslit in my whole damn life, and I just want to scream. It's like nobody gives a single shit and I'm so mad about it.
I have no idea what's going to happen after the return to work deadline hits. I have no idea how me and my doctor are going to navigate this. Regardless of what happens, it won't be good. I'm going to get absolutely screwed out of everything, and lose thousands of dollars in medical bills. I'm so stressed out by it that I have to take one day at a time. Do only what is immediately in front of me. Otherwise I'll shut down. It's awful, and I hate it. I wish I had good news, but living in the USA is hell, so we can't have good things.
BUT THERE IS POSITIVE NEWS:
In reaction to all this BS, I said to myself, "ok, sure! Alright! If I'm not hurt, let me draw and do everything as normal then. Fuck you." So I did. I started drawing again. I started doing WAY more art projects in general sense I've been out of work. I've been doing a TON of shit. Do my hands and back hurt? Oh 100% it fuckin sucks. I will turn the next person who tells me I'm not hurt into dust. BUT it's motivated me to get off my damn ass and finally start doing things again. Slowly but surely, I'm getting back into the swing of making things.
If you've been waiting for me to post things, waiting for me to do anything in general for a long time, I'm happy to say that your wait is almost over. For Christmas, my very sweet friend
BeaverBubbles gave me a dedicated scanner that I had my eyes on. This thing is nuts, and can scan images in VERY high resolutions. I'm going to use this to scan and upload a shit ton of stuff. This will be part of finishing the biggest task I've been wanting to do for ages: Completely reorganize and re-manage my computer, database, and art galleries. Shit is going to start moving soon. Now that I've got my two big projects out of the way, I can focus on getting my shit together in more ways than one. I do have another video in the works, but it's not the current priority.
I plan on doing a lot of stuff to make up for the lack of posting and activity. I want to swing back in a big way. I'm motivated by not only a desire to make things in general, but now also spite. I don't care anymore. Life sucks and is too short, I'm gonna do what I want. I'll talk more about this another time, but for now, just know that there's a LOT goin on in this fox brain of mine.
I need to stop rambling so I will leave you with this: Soon I will be scanning and uploading an art pack containing the very first vore drawings I ever did. I used to draw kinky stuff on lil notebook pages, then hide them away in a shoe box. This was waaaay back, many years ago before I even had my DeviantArt. Stuff from before I even posted online. I'm going to call it something like the "origins pack." I want to share with you all my really bad but completely sincere art, because I think that's a neat thing to do. I also plan on making it free.
If you got sketch commissions from me many years ago, you'll get your art very soon. That has been something I think about EVERY single day. I really do, and I hate how long its taken me to finish them. I'm gonna make good on all this shit and I'm going to make you smile and aaaaaaaaaa
Love yall <3
Also great job on your music, hope to hear more <3
Also I wish I had my original vore drawings too, but I threw them all away before I went to college out of fear they'd be found by my parents. Was a dumb fear, but oh well.
Oh no! I did the same to my very first vore drawing. I drew some snake vore, then got so worried that my parents would find it, that I shredded it and snuck it into the garbage late at night. Thankfully that was the only one I did that for.
Much love from the nomsune!
Healthcare sucks major ass. I'm sorry it's been causing you so much more strife than you've already been dealing with. Sincerely hoping you find that diamond in the rough sooner than later.
I am glad too that you've been finding your drive once again, and I'm very eager to see what you post!
Be safe, take care of yourself (more than those asshole 'doctors' are), and most of all, stay awesome. You rock, don't ever forget it. <3
I hope so too, I will keep trying.
I hope you enjoy it!
Aww... Thank you again, I will do my very best <3