just.. why? what's the point? why should i waste my time and energy working on something to get money i can't spend on anything i want? i think it's just... pointless.

it pisses me off that my brother and sister-in-law are living here without really doing anything. Doing little or no chores, they don't have a job either, so we're all living here from money we get from pensions from my mom and I... which is good for 2 (my mom and I), but not enough for 4 people. All they do is just... playing video games. Nothing productive. They're more of a burden and a waste of money and other resources... like parasites... my mom has done some shit just so my brother could work... even if that meant we would get less money as we wouldn't get anything from him, but that'd be ok because he'd get a job so we'd have more cash for... pretty much everything... right...? well, i think it's been a year or so... and he still hasn't been hired anywhere... and doesn't reaaaaally seem to be willing to get a job... i can't spend my money on anything i want... but then you see him and his gf spending her money she gets from her defunct dad on figurines and other useless shit instead of actually helping us economically. if i can't really save anything, it's because of them. things would be much easy if they actually helped and didn't live here like parasites. well, at least they pay for the internet, but that's all they do for us here...

i want a rog xbox ally x as it's the best and most powerful handheld pc out there...
as well as i want it as a replacement in case my pc could pass away as it's 5 years old
because... without a computer, i would become useless and will lose all my friends for not being useful for them...

well, im poor, which is a valid reason for people to laugh at me

goodnight