I’m on the verge of a mental breakdown right now. I am overwhelmed, and my work is playing head games with me. I need to not exist. I am not going to do anything rash, but just wish I could not feel so overwhelmed and not overthink things right now. I am going to try and take a LoA for a week. Maybe I’ll be able to regain some lost sanity. Though I am not hopeful. Right now I just feel lost and overwhelmed and have very little resources to cope. I need therapy but it’s so difficult to get a competent therapist and have to jump through a million hoops and miles of red tape to what? Get somebody who is at best depressed or worst completely apathetic and is seemingly only half listening to what I say? I need help. I can’t get it, and I feel like I am loosing my mind.