I just got a new tablet from Walmart. The old one's case is cracked and the touchscreen spazzes out every so often.

So now I wonder, how can I have internet and still be bored?

Well, honestly it all comes down to a lack of real-world experience. I haven't held a job, voted or been on a single date. I'm one of those Christians who wait their whole lives for a call that never comes.

What if we're wrong and God wants us to decide our own fate? Suppose the call is just a tactic to keep our butts in the pews forever, not sinning but also not living.

I hope the habit of passivity can be broken.

In other news, I came out to Mom. After a worrying wait, she told me I'm always welcome. Which is great, but I still don't know Dad's reaction. Plus I want to go abroad and eventually find my own place.

I don't want to die surrounded by conservative old ladies who never change their views; I wanna live!