That so many people want to be around a monster like me. Like... I'm grateful people want to be around me but... I just do not deserve it and I really find it disturbing, when so many would be better off not knowing me...

There is not, nor should there ever be, a place for me... and it really hurts that people cannot see that. I do like that people want to be around me, but that's not gonna stop me from judging you for wanting to...