Well, I'm 38. Last year I was feeling a little bit nervous at the prospect of time getting away from me. I often fear the world spinning on without me when I'm so physically down and out. Despite confirmation that my issues are likely going to be a lifelong condition, this year I feel nothing but comfort. I have had so many people in my life that are incredible and it offsets the more shitty straws that I've drawn the last five years or so. I've been supported, encouraged, and assured, even when I've been less than ideal about social engagements and consistency. I've learned that even with my debilitating problems that elude reliable treatment, I've grown in some pretty incredible ways. I don't work like I want. Not by a long shot. But I am doing a wider variety of things on a small scale. Coding my own linux projects and Discord bot for streaming, helping out a bit on a game engine, drawing more, and writing a lot. I found out just this month that I'm going to be a paid and published author working with two people I've admired immensely as creators and a third who has been invaluable in making me a better writer. I build and paint warhammer minis. I helped a friend with their college programming projects several times. The nephew I more or less raised is an amazing person I'm endlessly proud of who recently told me I helped him avoid going down so many bad roads while always being fun and loving. I have had more movie nights on my server. It felt for the longest time that I was on a cliff's edge, barely holding on and clawing for some shred of my old life. I'm finally getting to the point where I'm okay with accepting that yes, my old life may be gone, but the new one is still full of things that matter as long as I'm patient with myself and limit the pressure and expectations. For those of you out there who I've know, whether it's been for a long time or only recently, I value you so much. It genuinely hurts to be unable to convey how much more I wish I could do for and with you. What we do get means the world to me. Thank you for helping me view the world not in terms of the time I've lost but rather instead in what I do when time is limited and a precious thing to share when I can with who I love.