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Yeah I'm also making a journal, are you annoyed yet?
a year ago
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I'll be brief, because we've done this dance a thousand times now, and at this point I'm just jaded. But again, I need money to pay for this month's rent, that is, november, that is ending just in a couple days.
That gives me more or less 2 days to make a 100 bucks, which don't ask me how the fuck am I gonna pull it out but I have to.
Especially now since the college's semester is over and I should finally have the time to actually work, which, in a related note, fuck college, it has utterly and completely ruined the past 3 years of my life, but you don't want me to get on a tangent of how it financially, emotionally and socially destroyed me, you're here for the chance of getting some 6 ft. tall lady with an equally as long dick shoving it down someone's throat (most likely mine, just like how college and life are doing at this very moment.)
Do help, do not. Up to you, at this point, if you pay me, I dance, I guess, but I know we are all tired of me annyoing everyone with this, so maybe it's a sign from life to get off this train and do something else for a living.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49798160/
That gives me more or less 2 days to make a 100 bucks, which don't ask me how the fuck am I gonna pull it out but I have to.
Especially now since the college's semester is over and I should finally have the time to actually work, which, in a related note, fuck college, it has utterly and completely ruined the past 3 years of my life, but you don't want me to get on a tangent of how it financially, emotionally and socially destroyed me, you're here for the chance of getting some 6 ft. tall lady with an equally as long dick shoving it down someone's throat (most likely mine, just like how college and life are doing at this very moment.)
Do help, do not. Up to you, at this point, if you pay me, I dance, I guess, but I know we are all tired of me annyoing everyone with this, so maybe it's a sign from life to get off this train and do something else for a living.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49798160/
Donya, I mean it that, when I want to help out, be it a donation, a commission or just spreading the word, I do it because I know I can, it doesn't put me in any danger, and while it's true I've been more on the obsessed side of things, that I've done seemingly stupid things; I was just trying to balance my moral compass the same you are with your "I don't deserve this much" arguments.
It has been a long time, now I could've been naive thinking you'd "forgive" me in the meantime, I know I was desperate, but then I tried to make peace with it, even though you were obviously still a very dear friend to me and that's hard to forget, just that now I had a bunch of fall-offs and really wanted to talk with you again, so it doesn't help me one bit that I'm extra jumpy and do even stupidier things, so I can't really blame you here, apart from the fact that I know you can come to terms with my whole spiel, and I don't want to force you, really don't, but please, just, think about this.
Even if you made me hate you, which, well, I guess I'll give you that, you nearly got rid of me, just like you wanted, I'm not gonna just ignore what you did for me and what blast it has been, the positive influence on my own art and growth, like I said, you aren't murdering anyone, so you are still someone I'd like to have around, and it's especially the case when there's nobody quite like you that just, understands me, and I know that makes me bit of a burden on you, because you assume the role of many friends I would've normally had, if I wasn't this silly me, but then I remembered something you said about staying myself, and I want you to know that I also like you for being you, and seeing you do the stupid things I do, I simply don't want another version on me to exist, that is the only thing I ask of you.
You should accept the help, I know it's hard to then not get used to it and try to "demand" it, but that's why these posts of yours are great, you aren't asking every day, only when you urgently need it, even though it's not ideal, it gets you by, but you have to think about the possibility of simply flying under the radar, people can easily miss these, so y'know...