No I am not quitting or anything.

I am leaving a lot of things behind, and about to regain a lot of things I have lost.

I am understand this is a change, not a change for the better, but a change that gives me the opportunity to be better.

I am still me, miserable and trying to run away from things that I can't run away from. I'll hate myself for the choices I made and making choices that I know I will hate myself for making.

Or maybe I'll do better, maybe just a little bit, but still better.


okay enough mad rambling about myself that you can ignore, here are info that you may actually care about.
I am regaining access to my desktop computer and re-establishing a routine, there will probably be an increase in productivity, I want to say I've improved my arts over the last several months, and I have, but I am not happy about the progress. I've got the kind of greed they talk about in bibles, I am never happy about what I have, and that've pushed my to learn new stuffs and improve myself, or pushed me into a pit of self-hatred. Either way, I'll keep drawing.

Thank you for your support, I don't usually have an identity of myself so every fav, watch, comment is usually my perception of my existence. Yeah that sounds kinda shallow, materialistic and self-centered, but I spent my whole life made of mostly materials, being only myself, and experiencing what one can when there're billions ways to experience it, so it's all kinda to be expected.