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3 years ago
That I don't feel lately very good morally, I'm living some bad times here, each day that passes I have less and less free time, due family and job.
I'm not gonna enter in much details, but my job leaves me very exahusted and I barely wanna do anything else than just sleep or play a game ocassionaly (that if my parents leave me and don't ask me to do chores and stuff), my time of a content creator ended up some years ago when my job started to be more demanding, and sadly I can't really get a better one due the fact all of them are even worse than the one I am right now, and throwing off the bonus I have here for all the years I was working in my current one is stupid.
I just got aware that, to be a good artist and improve your art skills, you need to make it your job, or just be jobless, all in all, you get burned from it, or you die of hunger.
In my case, I need a secure and constant income to live, so, I can't leave my job to do art and live from it, the bad thing is that when I have free time, I relate drawing with job, and that doens't help me too much, also being a fan of videogames doesn't help one bit on these times with the tsunamy of good titles that are coming.
I'm kinda depressed, and that made me do a big clean up of my social medias, and ended up deleting most of my friend list from Discord, if you're one of them, I'm so sorry, is not your fault, I just... need some time to be alone, like a restart.
It really hurt me to delete some people, cool artists and people that I chat and have some good time with, but I feel this was kind of necessary for me right now, when I feel better, I will try to retake all my peps, so, again, don't feel offended or mad with me if you're one of the ones who have been deleted.
I'm going to try to draw some more, I'm not sure how is going to be or if I was gonna be able to make something decent, but I'm gonna give it a try, I barelly do any art lately, and that's burning me from the inside little by little, and I have the need to change that.
For those people who keep asking me about Project X... I'm gonna be honest, is time to move on, it was a great experience, and it was fun, but the program is already very old, is an issue to code and do all the stuff for it, all the people who was involved to do it, is busy right now, we all grow up and we aren't teens anymore with spare time to waste, so don't expect much more from it.
That's all for now, loves ya all <3
I'm not gonna enter in much details, but my job leaves me very exahusted and I barely wanna do anything else than just sleep or play a game ocassionaly (that if my parents leave me and don't ask me to do chores and stuff), my time of a content creator ended up some years ago when my job started to be more demanding, and sadly I can't really get a better one due the fact all of them are even worse than the one I am right now, and throwing off the bonus I have here for all the years I was working in my current one is stupid.
I just got aware that, to be a good artist and improve your art skills, you need to make it your job, or just be jobless, all in all, you get burned from it, or you die of hunger.
In my case, I need a secure and constant income to live, so, I can't leave my job to do art and live from it, the bad thing is that when I have free time, I relate drawing with job, and that doens't help me too much, also being a fan of videogames doesn't help one bit on these times with the tsunamy of good titles that are coming.
I'm kinda depressed, and that made me do a big clean up of my social medias, and ended up deleting most of my friend list from Discord, if you're one of them, I'm so sorry, is not your fault, I just... need some time to be alone, like a restart.
It really hurt me to delete some people, cool artists and people that I chat and have some good time with, but I feel this was kind of necessary for me right now, when I feel better, I will try to retake all my peps, so, again, don't feel offended or mad with me if you're one of the ones who have been deleted.
I'm going to try to draw some more, I'm not sure how is going to be or if I was gonna be able to make something decent, but I'm gonna give it a try, I barelly do any art lately, and that's burning me from the inside little by little, and I have the need to change that.
For those people who keep asking me about Project X... I'm gonna be honest, is time to move on, it was a great experience, and it was fun, but the program is already very old, is an issue to code and do all the stuff for it, all the people who was involved to do it, is busy right now, we all grow up and we aren't teens anymore with spare time to waste, so don't expect much more from it.
That's all for now, loves ya all <3
But let's hope all goes well for you.
well, as the saying goes "nothing is eternal"... I am someone who recently followed you, but I perfectly understand how you feel and I can only tell you, take good care of yourself and we hope that one day you can come back... rest for now and try to put your life in order... with nothing more to say, until we see each other again (even though we've never met XD)
Content creation is hard to do reliably, but if you do it for fun rather than as a job it is slightly easier. Moving on from the project is a good choice. If you want to return to it later, you can always go back and work on it again. If you don't, don't.
Hopefully all you are doing helps!
Let's hope things get better for you
I know life can be hard but you are also one of many people who are strong.
so relax do your best to short things out so you can relax more enjoy your own art and As Sonic Says "Just Smile" ^^
Most job advances and raises these days don't come from loyalty to a company that couldn't care less about you, it comes from going to a competitor.
Do remember you and the work you do have value, not just to your job but also to other companies with similar jobs. A company being able to hire you away from your current place directly benefits them, and possibly enough that you can negotiate a sizable bonus as well.
and from the looks you got alot of people who do care for you Zeta. your not alone.
Good luck to you, I really mean it. The world has really gone and flipped inside
out but yikes. That one really does suck. I hope things do turn around for you,
and you'll always be a part of our crew too. You helped pull us into the light
even if it is a small blip in Project X, that still means a lot.
Good Luck and really you'll be in our thoughts.
Keep searching for work, even if the options seem slim. It's never good to be stuck in a job that's wearing you down too much, and even if you don't find one, the search might turn up something better.
I hope you can feel better there, and that you have good luck in your search for a better job and some peace.
For the last 18+ months, I've haven't done any drawing of any kind, commission/YCH or otherwise, simply because at the time I got burnt out from doing commission after commission, making my hobby of drawing feel more and more like a 2nd job outside of my real life one at the pizza place that I work. So, I decided to quit temporarily until I felt ready to return to drawing. At first, I thought it would be a few weeks or maybe a month or two. But, by football season (which starts in November) things got hectic at work, and it became my priority job over drawing. Even now, my place of work is under staff and over-worked with pizza orders, especially on the weekends, So that left me just concentrating on my job as dish washer/etc.
As for now, I'm working between 4-5 days a week, making about $600 per month (I get paid bi-weekly), leaving me exhausted after coming home, leaving me time to either cook or play Star Trek Online. Even wen I have 2-3 or even 4 days off, I rather spend that time off relaxing, preparing for my week weekend shift. Plus, I've been taking the time I have in between work, learning how to cook for myself, either burgers, pasta, or Asian dishes like Udon, Katsu Curry, Katsudon, etc. So, basically, I have a new hobby outside of drawing.
And even though I want to return to drawing, I feel that I if I ever do, it'll have to be with just drawing for myself, and not any commission or YCH work uintil I feel good and ready for it, not to mention when I give myself the time to do so.
So overall, my situation is the same as yours: I'm too concentrated on work as my job, and I'm burnt out from drawing, and now just focusing on cooking and playing online gaming.
So yeah.
I do have one commissioner left, but I'm refunding him his money, so that I have to commit to his drawings for now. So yeah.
Anyways, I hope you do well. And even if you don't draw much anymore, I hope we all at least get to hear from you how things are going.
Take care!
**hugs**
I've been following for awhile and noticed the pressures weighing on ya. We're all growing up and doing something.
Like I said- We're all rooting for ya. So no pressure. Find yourself. Find your passion. And rock on
I hope you can recharge and feel better. I know how rough things can get moral and mental wise.
I want to remind you that taking time for yourself is crucial, and sometimes that means taking a break to reset. It's completely understandable that you need some solitude to recharge. Take all the time you need, and feel free to come back when you're ready.
After all there are always people who like your work and prefer a healthy artist to an overly productive one.
It's also important to find a balance between life's daily obligations and activities that you're passionate about. I understand that your current job is demanding, but perhaps there are small breaks you can give yourself to do something you enjoy, even if it's just for a few moments. Maybe find a moment to draw without pressure, just for the pleasure of it.
Regarding the creative aspect, it's understandable that work-related pressure has impacted your passion for art. Try to remember why you started drawing in the first place, the joy and satisfaction it brings. Maybe start slowly, without expectations, just to rediscover the pleasure of creating.
As for Project X, it's entirely understandable that things evolve over time. Circumstances change, and it's normal to move on to new phases in life. The game you created was a fantastic experience for me and for many other, and I'm sure many people appreciate it greatly.
Just take care of yourself above all. If you need to talk or need support, feel free to come back when you feel ready, don't make the same mistake as me who...failed to come back too often and be inactive at the end, You're a amazing artist and certainly a great person to talk with!
We're here for you, and there's no pressure. Take the time you need to recover, and I hope things get better for you. Courage Zeta, You will find your way despite everything, if you give up that will never be the case, you certainly haven't given everything you want to do for the moment so don't give up and be patient for any of these projects you have! 🌟