oh, the places these wings have carried me.....

i have no one...no family, no friends...no chains holding me down to any one place. i have been alone for as long as i can remember. i have never had a home...i have my wings. i have an open sky. i have a heart full of yearning....i want to see the world. it does get lonely...sometimes. when the lonliness begins to creep in, i know that it is time to move on. so i spread my wings....listen to my heart...and soar. my own gut feeling and the wind carry me to destination after destination...i dont stay in one place for too long. too easy to get tied down....better off alone....dont associate with people, dont get attached, it only ends in misery.

i made that mistake once. stupid...i was so stupid then. i was younger...and there was a girl. gods, she was beautiful. looking at her face sent pains shooting to my chest, i couldnt breathe, couldnt think...i lost my senses when she was around. we began to get close...i was so ready to confess my feelings for her. then a terrible epidemic hit...and half of the town died. even with her skin half rotted away, tears running down her face as the doctors told her that it was too late to stop the disease....i thought she was the most beautiful girl in the entire world. she finally learned of my feelings....and died the very next day. i was crushed....all the light spilled out of me....and i will not make that mistake again.

alone, always. its the only way to get by in this world. sure its not always easy......but i would sonner tear out my heart then let it experience that kind of pain again.


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*love*
i finally got a set of prismacolor colored pencils ^.^
so...drew this today before going down to my grammas house

inspired by my friend bobby...he said he always wanted a monkey tail and angel wings...painted this image in my head, and i had to draw him.

his name is daemon...an incubus who learned the hard way that sometimes, people are better off alone...:/