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Thanks to Muzz for inspiring me to let out some of the things I hide. I don't want to steal her thunder, though. She had the guts first, and I probably wouldn't have been smart enough to think of it or brave enough to try it without her example.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/955947/
EDIT: Thanks to many of the posts, let me just clarify here: this isn't a cry for help. This isn't an "I'm more messed up than you" ploy. This isn't a pile of excuses. These are things that weigh on my mind, that I deal with, work on, live with, and move past but that still live up there in my head, weighing me down. I'm not doing nothing about it. (Intentional double negative.) Nor do I need advice on it. This is just a way of admitting, getting some weight off my chest and moving on.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/955947/
EDIT: Thanks to many of the posts, let me just clarify here: this isn't a cry for help. This isn't an "I'm more messed up than you" ploy. This isn't a pile of excuses. These are things that weigh on my mind, that I deal with, work on, live with, and move past but that still live up there in my head, weighing me down. I'm not doing nothing about it. (Intentional double negative.) Nor do I need advice on it. This is just a way of admitting, getting some weight off my chest and moving on.
Category All / General Furry Art
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If creating something that is full of truth and honesty causes me to be an attention whore, so be it. I couldn't care less what kind of image it gave me, I won't deny that it felt good to write those things knowing that I don't have to explain a single thing to anyone. So as I said, there are no strings attached for me, because I just don't care what other people think.
Because I wanted to? It was a piece of art that I wanted to try for myself? Just because I post art on a public website doesn't mean I have to care about what people think. Like Ksharra has said in her description edit, its something I had to get off of my chest and it felt good to do so.
I've slept around in almost every relationship I've been in.
Maybe I am a slut.
Sorry to be the harbinger of bad news, but that is a correct statement. This is healthy critisim. Learn from it. If you think you can lie and run away from your problems, especially if they are as serious as cheating multiple times on multiple people, then you need to rethink life itself, before it's too late. I wouldn't be surprised if you left Mississippi because all your Ex's hated you for cheating on them, or whatever. And before you say anything, I read the entire wall. From examining it, you need harsh truth and a good doctor. I'm no doctor, so I can't give you anything but the first thing, which I hope is getting to you. I don't even know anything about you, save what is on this wall, and already I know that you're the kind of girl that I'd pity and never, ever consider being with. The people on this site lack a harsh amount of realism. 90% of them are here to promote their fursonas in some way and to get laid by other people's fursonas. I am not part of them. I am here for the art, and to possibly use my writing skills in some way, as I am a member of Deviant Art for the same reason.
Look at it this way. You're fucked up. I'm fucked up, but not like this. This is serious and needs attention. You've come close to being raped and might I state that roughly 10% of all rapes end in the victim dying. Seeing what I've seen, you open yourself up for that. Depriaved is all I can think of.
Feel free to Spill your reply with insults and harshness. I'm ready for it. That goes for all whoever wish to respond to this.
Maybe I am a slut.
Sorry to be the harbinger of bad news, but that is a correct statement. This is healthy critisim. Learn from it. If you think you can lie and run away from your problems, especially if they are as serious as cheating multiple times on multiple people, then you need to rethink life itself, before it's too late. I wouldn't be surprised if you left Mississippi because all your Ex's hated you for cheating on them, or whatever. And before you say anything, I read the entire wall. From examining it, you need harsh truth and a good doctor. I'm no doctor, so I can't give you anything but the first thing, which I hope is getting to you. I don't even know anything about you, save what is on this wall, and already I know that you're the kind of girl that I'd pity and never, ever consider being with. The people on this site lack a harsh amount of realism. 90% of them are here to promote their fursonas in some way and to get laid by other people's fursonas. I am not part of them. I am here for the art, and to possibly use my writing skills in some way, as I am a member of Deviant Art for the same reason.
Look at it this way. You're fucked up. I'm fucked up, but not like this. This is serious and needs attention. You've come close to being raped and might I state that roughly 10% of all rapes end in the victim dying. Seeing what I've seen, you open yourself up for that. Depriaved is all I can think of.
Feel free to Spill your reply with insults and harshness. I'm ready for it. That goes for all whoever wish to respond to this.
No, I'm pretty aware that I'm messed up. But the psych in high school didn't help me, and I don't trust them now. I got into a very unhealthy relationship when I was way too young, and it's affected my life in so many ways. I know I need help, but I don't trust anyone to help me. That in itself is a sign I need help, I'm sure.
The times I was almost raped, once was at a social gathering with friends. The guy was drunk and upset at a breakup, and decided to take it out on me. I was not in any way being sexually inviting towards him, it was purely an attack. My friends were luckily able to pull him off me. The other time, the person snuck into my room when I was in the house alone. I fought him off by wedging my thumb into his eye socket.
I ran from MS because I was afraid of two ex's. The first one, who over the course of 7 years dominated me, broke my spirit, and then later on tried to rape me. I was afraid he'd regain interest and try again (see comment about "someone will try to dominate me against my will ... it's happened before"). The second, who was still in love with me and couldn't accept the fact that I was married. Neither had been cheated on (though the second was a consentually non-monogamous relationship).
I'm an incredibly submissive sex addict with a history of emotional abuse and a warped sense of morality. Of course that makes me fucked up, as you so eloquently put it.
The times I was almost raped, once was at a social gathering with friends. The guy was drunk and upset at a breakup, and decided to take it out on me. I was not in any way being sexually inviting towards him, it was purely an attack. My friends were luckily able to pull him off me. The other time, the person snuck into my room when I was in the house alone. I fought him off by wedging my thumb into his eye socket.
I ran from MS because I was afraid of two ex's. The first one, who over the course of 7 years dominated me, broke my spirit, and then later on tried to rape me. I was afraid he'd regain interest and try again (see comment about "someone will try to dominate me against my will ... it's happened before"). The second, who was still in love with me and couldn't accept the fact that I was married. Neither had been cheated on (though the second was a consentually non-monogamous relationship).
I'm an incredibly submissive sex addict with a history of emotional abuse and a warped sense of morality. Of course that makes me fucked up, as you so eloquently put it.
Takes a lot of courage to speak your mind like this. That's no sign of weakness, to expose your fears and self-doubts to friends, fans, and the occasional bozo.
I'd make a wild guess that you've got some depression going on here. I know about that, since I'm wobbling around damning myself far too much of the time. Well, we all have monsters, we all have "like the moon, a dark side we show to no one." I dare say your monsters aren't as bad as most, probably not as bad as mine-- but then, as I said, I'm prone to depression myself. :)
Look, I'm not going to tell you to cheer up, because if you're suffering from depression, you can't. But from what I've read from you, I think you're a good person. You've already shown a lot of courage. That will help you work through this. And obviously, you have a lot of people here who you can talk to if you wish.
I'd make a wild guess that you've got some depression going on here. I know about that, since I'm wobbling around damning myself far too much of the time. Well, we all have monsters, we all have "like the moon, a dark side we show to no one." I dare say your monsters aren't as bad as most, probably not as bad as mine-- but then, as I said, I'm prone to depression myself. :)
Look, I'm not going to tell you to cheer up, because if you're suffering from depression, you can't. But from what I've read from you, I think you're a good person. You've already shown a lot of courage. That will help you work through this. And obviously, you have a lot of people here who you can talk to if you wish.
*HUGS* So your past affects who you became? *fuzzies ears* Like one of the reasons I Got my tattoo and where I got it. Got scars and crap it may sometimes drive me forward or affect decisions good or bad. BUT thats where it is behind me. I just put color to it. Everyones a lil f'd up. I got my own set o' issues just like everyone else. You didn't let it stop you from finding a mate and getting married. (assume still married). And just cuz you love sex a lot *shrugs* this a big issue? I know A lot of my female friends where raped or nearly rapped. :( Glad this prick never succeeded. Very sorry you had to deal with that. I can only imagine how horrible that was.
It's hard to make polygamy work. The most stable seem to be two happily married couples, since they have a partner to fall back on when something changes. You've already named a number of monogamous relationships that didn't work, and those are about as simple as you can get (in a country where 7 divorces is the average). You've fucked a lot of assholes. Assholes that some guys would love to shove the broken end of a broom handle into. Heck, I wouldn't go anywhere near MS if you paid me. But you happened to live there and everyone discovers their sexuality with the people nearest to them. That's how things panned out and if you realize that then you've got a start. The simple answer is to find someone that pays as much attention to you as you would to them. A fair and equally rewarding relationship. Anything else is just making love to a corpse.
these are excelent theraputic value they put into a visual form what we all have inside its by no means trivial i felt much better after doing mine http://www.furaffinity.net/view/920196/
it brings into the light the truths and shadows that hide all to often festering like poisons in a spirit
oh bacos are excelent cooked in egg for a sandwitch and just by themselves
it brings into the light the truths and shadows that hide all to often festering like poisons in a spirit
oh bacos are excelent cooked in egg for a sandwitch and just by themselves
Reading some of these responses makes me kinda... sick. Ksharra, I'm being honest, I hope you get through this and evolve into a better person. As someone who was cheated on in a 9 year relationship by someone I loved with all my heart and soul... I can honestly say, a lesser man than me would have murder on his mind cause I came pretty damn close myself.
Just be honest with yourself Ksharra, we really are all fucked up in some way. In that sense, we can all find kinship amongst each other. My door's always open if you wanna talk. Much love tiger babe.
-Dante
Just be honest with yourself Ksharra, we really are all fucked up in some way. In that sense, we can all find kinship amongst each other. My door's always open if you wanna talk. Much love tiger babe.
-Dante
I can easily trace my cheating morality back to my first and most devastating relationship. I was used, dominated, and went through frequent "break ups" so he could sleep with someone else, get tired of them and come back to me. I was emotionally addicted and completely broken, didn't know any better, and just coming into my teens. He controlled me for years before I was able to break away, and I know that may sound weird to anyone who's never been dominated, but... That kinda messed me up for life, and I've been dealing with it for a very long time.
Dealing with it or hiding from it? Dealing with it implies working to correct it. I'm not saying you've not done anything... but you haven't made any mention of actually doing anything to rectify this state of mind. You've acknowledged the misdeeds, and you've acknowledged the trauma, and you've acknowledged gaining the understanding that something must be done...
...but what have you done exactly? And if it's to personal, just tell me to politely STFU. ^_^;
...but what have you done exactly? And if it's to personal, just tell me to politely STFU. ^_^;
Well, I certainly haven't been hiding from it, or you wouldn't know about it. I've been gradually working in each relationship I've been in to learn the rules and learn to stick with them. I've still slipped up on occasion, when the rules aren't clear, but I try to make sure to prevent misunderstandings. A lot of the relationships I've been in have been open, usually open with restrictions. That's where I tend to slip, is when the restrictions aren't clear. In the very few closed relationships I've been in, I've been faithful.
Long story short, I try to set boundaries and stick to them. Rules help to splint a broken conscience, so to speak.
Long story short, I try to set boundaries and stick to them. Rules help to splint a broken conscience, so to speak.
It takes a lot of strength to come out and share all this with the world.
In my personal experiences with life, there is one major thing that I have learned..
If you want something to change, only you can do it.
This is the first step to finding your troubles, and overcoming them, now all you need to do is take another.
I hope you pick yourself up.
Jaffer
In my personal experiences with life, there is one major thing that I have learned..
If you want something to change, only you can do it.
This is the first step to finding your troubles, and overcoming them, now all you need to do is take another.
I hope you pick yourself up.
Jaffer
1. You're not a slut. Or at least you've never come across as one to me.
2. Never feel guilty about wanting anything. And only feel guilty about taking it if you had to hurt someone to do it. Guilt is one of the most useless human emotions.
3. Are you bisexual? XD Or maybe you girls are just so hot that you're all actually starting to realize it.
4. ...But do you get naked purposely to play it?
5. If you don't like yourself, then the rest of us will just have to like you even more to compensate, I suppose. :p Shouldn't be too hard.
6. Make something of yourself? Hon, you're one of FA's best artists. I WISH I had even a TENTH of your artistic talent.
7. You probably like ppl domming you because you're too insecure about yourself. With a bit more self confidence, that need should diminish to a safe level.
8. YOU'VE got fucked up religious views? XD Hon, you ain't seen the half of it. There's a name for your beliefs, and it's 'atheism'. I, on the other claw, follow a religion, but none previously known to humankind. XD You wanna talk about fucked up? I made up my own religion, and follow it quite faithfully.
9. You love your cat more than your family? That's understandable, actually. I love my human friends more than my family. Do you know why? Because I didn't get to choose my family. And my friends are family that I DID get to choose. As is your cat. The loved ones who don't see our love as their birthright are the ones we love the most.
...If that makes any sense.
10. *huggles* You just want to settle down and be happy? Hon, that's all ANYONE ever wants. Fortunately for me, I'm polyamorous. :p Not only do I get to have multiple partners, but each one of them is a meaningful relationship full of love. You might want to try it out, if you enjoy sleeping around. It makes life a lot easier, though you can only mate with other polyamorous ppl.
...Okay, so by now, you either want to continue this conversation (PM me), or want me to shut the fuck up and butt out of your business (just reply here. I don't mind).
Either way, I hope I've been of at least some help.
2. Never feel guilty about wanting anything. And only feel guilty about taking it if you had to hurt someone to do it. Guilt is one of the most useless human emotions.
3. Are you bisexual? XD Or maybe you girls are just so hot that you're all actually starting to realize it.
4. ...But do you get naked purposely to play it?
5. If you don't like yourself, then the rest of us will just have to like you even more to compensate, I suppose. :p Shouldn't be too hard.
6. Make something of yourself? Hon, you're one of FA's best artists. I WISH I had even a TENTH of your artistic talent.
7. You probably like ppl domming you because you're too insecure about yourself. With a bit more self confidence, that need should diminish to a safe level.
8. YOU'VE got fucked up religious views? XD Hon, you ain't seen the half of it. There's a name for your beliefs, and it's 'atheism'. I, on the other claw, follow a religion, but none previously known to humankind. XD You wanna talk about fucked up? I made up my own religion, and follow it quite faithfully.
9. You love your cat more than your family? That's understandable, actually. I love my human friends more than my family. Do you know why? Because I didn't get to choose my family. And my friends are family that I DID get to choose. As is your cat. The loved ones who don't see our love as their birthright are the ones we love the most.
...If that makes any sense.
10. *huggles* You just want to settle down and be happy? Hon, that's all ANYONE ever wants. Fortunately for me, I'm polyamorous. :p Not only do I get to have multiple partners, but each one of them is a meaningful relationship full of love. You might want to try it out, if you enjoy sleeping around. It makes life a lot easier, though you can only mate with other polyamorous ppl.
...Okay, so by now, you either want to continue this conversation (PM me), or want me to shut the fuck up and butt out of your business (just reply here. I don't mind).
Either way, I hope I've been of at least some help.
Actually I'm not an atheist. And I believe your religion is valid too. ;) Go fig.
And I've tried polyamoury. It doesn't work for me. I just want one guy. I know I CAN be faithful. I've been faithful to two people. Both of whom dominated me completely and then left me. I just need to find someone I can be faithful to who won't abandon me.
And I've tried polyamoury. It doesn't work for me. I just want one guy. I know I CAN be faithful. I've been faithful to two people. Both of whom dominated me completely and then left me. I just need to find someone I can be faithful to who won't abandon me.
"I just want one guy" i can only hope I'm the one you want forever love.
"I know I CAN be faithful." and your really showing that love
"I just need to find someone I can be faithful to who won't abandon me." well you found him love
We all have our problems, we all have our downfalls and we have all had a things go wrong. I love you for who you are. I don't give a damn "if" there are problems I love you for you and if you feel you want to improve who you are, do it love. But know that I love you as you are. I'm not going to leave you. I'm not going to abandon someone that has made me feel so much better about myself, made me the artist i am today, made me feel like i have found "the one". its not going to happened the only way that I'm leaving you is if you feel you don't want me anymore. Some how I don't see that happening though he he.
On a side note this is aimed at everyone that comments bad here.
ksharra is an amazing person, more than all of you that comment bad about her will ever be. its cause of people like you that she ended up the way she is and I'll be damed if I'm going to stand aside and see you do more damage. GET A LIFE ! AND don't give me "your not seeing her true side" bullshit . i have seen her true side, and i know for a fact she is amazing in ways you cant begin to imagine. so just do everyone a favour and shut up maybe if you do the world would be a better place to.
*hugs ksharra* I'm here for you love. For now, and forever
"I know I CAN be faithful." and your really showing that love
"I just need to find someone I can be faithful to who won't abandon me." well you found him love
We all have our problems, we all have our downfalls and we have all had a things go wrong. I love you for who you are. I don't give a damn "if" there are problems I love you for you and if you feel you want to improve who you are, do it love. But know that I love you as you are. I'm not going to leave you. I'm not going to abandon someone that has made me feel so much better about myself, made me the artist i am today, made me feel like i have found "the one". its not going to happened the only way that I'm leaving you is if you feel you don't want me anymore. Some how I don't see that happening though he he.
On a side note this is aimed at everyone that comments bad here.
ksharra is an amazing person, more than all of you that comment bad about her will ever be. its cause of people like you that she ended up the way she is and I'll be damed if I'm going to stand aside and see you do more damage. GET A LIFE ! AND don't give me "your not seeing her true side" bullshit . i have seen her true side, and i know for a fact she is amazing in ways you cant begin to imagine. so just do everyone a favour and shut up maybe if you do the world would be a better place to.
*hugs ksharra* I'm here for you love. For now, and forever
...Well from Spike's post below, which was about the sweetest, most loving thing I've ever heard, you're a bit of a liar. :p No offense meant.
It seems to me that about half the stuff you wrote up there, when you factor in Spike, is either superfluous or just downright untrue. It seems to me that you have a great deal of good things in your life, and you just need help seeing them.
Now you don't know me from a hole in the wall, so feel free to ignore my advice, but I think you should just take 15 minutes or so out of every day and focus on what is going RIGHT with your life. Maybe you wouldn't be so depressed. And if he's the kind of guy the above post makes him out to be, I'm sure that Spike would do everything in his power to help you out and get all those nasty, low-self-esteem thoughts out of your head.
It seems to me that about half the stuff you wrote up there, when you factor in Spike, is either superfluous or just downright untrue. It seems to me that you have a great deal of good things in your life, and you just need help seeing them.
Now you don't know me from a hole in the wall, so feel free to ignore my advice, but I think you should just take 15 minutes or so out of every day and focus on what is going RIGHT with your life. Maybe you wouldn't be so depressed. And if he's the kind of guy the above post makes him out to be, I'm sure that Spike would do everything in his power to help you out and get all those nasty, low-self-esteem thoughts out of your head.
"...take 15 minutes or so out of every day and focus on what is going RIGHT with your life. Maybe you wouldn't be so depressed."
That's really good advice. I do tend to focus a lot on the negative. Even now, it's hard for me to keep from making excuses about how much is going wrong and how tough life is... and it's not that bad. Yeah, I don't have an ideal life, but I have a job I like, a mate who is an absolute sweetheart, decent prospects for the future, and fans who care about me.
Thank you.
That's really good advice. I do tend to focus a lot on the negative. Even now, it's hard for me to keep from making excuses about how much is going wrong and how tough life is... and it's not that bad. Yeah, I don't have an ideal life, but I have a job I like, a mate who is an absolute sweetheart, decent prospects for the future, and fans who care about me.
Thank you.
Maybe I'm being a bit too nit picky here, but as someone who is polyamarous, I think that saying it's for people who "like to sleep around" is a bit off the mark. Polyamarous means "many loves" and though many who are poly do love more than one person, that doesn't necessarily mean we "sleep around". Sleeping around is more indicative of people that really don't care so much who they're with, long as they're getting laid.
There usually isn't much if any love involved in that.
Though I do understand how easily it can be misconstrued as such, considering that many people don't know the difference between people who just like to sleep around, and being polyamarous. Mainly because the term is often used incorrectly.
And of note, this isn't a flame, just noting that there is a difference.
*wags*
There usually isn't much if any love involved in that.
Though I do understand how easily it can be misconstrued as such, considering that many people don't know the difference between people who just like to sleep around, and being polyamarous. Mainly because the term is often used incorrectly.
And of note, this isn't a flame, just noting that there is a difference.
*wags*
If it's any comfort, I counted over twenty of those that apply to me; I don't think there's anything abnormal about feeling weird and broken sometimes. And art, any sort of art, is almost impossible to make a living on, no matter how talented you are, and you certainly shouldn't feel inadequate about your art. Some of the stuff in your gallery's stunning.
one thing i learned.... is that Candor is liberating. Just know that there's no real substantial spiritual reason to do so. Do it if it makes you feel better. I've found that sharing and being open about things helps bring people closer together.
I realized that the abstract concept of subjective Love, is when someone knows the worst thing about you, and it's OK.
Life is too short to be shy. Personally, i don't think much of this stuff is very wierd at all, and some really really are not a problem at all. You should feel stronger now. Realize that nothing can really hurt you.
I realized that the abstract concept of subjective Love, is when someone knows the worst thing about you, and it's OK.
Life is too short to be shy. Personally, i don't think much of this stuff is very wierd at all, and some really really are not a problem at all. You should feel stronger now. Realize that nothing can really hurt you.
*makes a balancing motion with his hands*
Ok, well, admittance is the first step to fixing it. The easy one. It's the step onto pavement. The next step is on a puddle of molten lava, and most the time when people take it, they jump back rather than forwards. DOING something about it...aye, that's the hard part.
I dunno, I've always felt actions speak louder than words, I guess. You mention being almost raped. Mmm, that's nothing uncommon, lotta people have been almost raped. To be honest, maybe it's because I myself am a rape victim, but I feel personally that being almost raped doesn't count as much of a mentally-scarring traumatic experience. Traumatic for a bit, yes, as in the possibility scares you, but, it's not anything like the actual thing. As for the sleeping around thing while being in every relationship, that doesn't make you a slut, it makes you a whore. I mean, I don't say that insultingly; by societal standards, the term whore is supposed to go to someone who sleeps around while in relationships; sluts are just people that just plain sleep around and never bother with relationships on an intimately romantic level. And, cameras don't make you look fat, perception of yourself is what makes you look fat. ;p If you make yourself believe you're skinny, then cameras will make you feel skinny, na'mean'?
Much of the other stuff makes sense and is easy to understand. Even the bit about doctors. But only physicians. Physicians are generally the ones that are sponsored by "big corporation," and therefore are always compelled to recommend one product over another regardless of its side effects it may have.
Meh. Maybe I should do one of these.
Ok, well, admittance is the first step to fixing it. The easy one. It's the step onto pavement. The next step is on a puddle of molten lava, and most the time when people take it, they jump back rather than forwards. DOING something about it...aye, that's the hard part.
I dunno, I've always felt actions speak louder than words, I guess. You mention being almost raped. Mmm, that's nothing uncommon, lotta people have been almost raped. To be honest, maybe it's because I myself am a rape victim, but I feel personally that being almost raped doesn't count as much of a mentally-scarring traumatic experience. Traumatic for a bit, yes, as in the possibility scares you, but, it's not anything like the actual thing. As for the sleeping around thing while being in every relationship, that doesn't make you a slut, it makes you a whore. I mean, I don't say that insultingly; by societal standards, the term whore is supposed to go to someone who sleeps around while in relationships; sluts are just people that just plain sleep around and never bother with relationships on an intimately romantic level. And, cameras don't make you look fat, perception of yourself is what makes you look fat. ;p If you make yourself believe you're skinny, then cameras will make you feel skinny, na'mean'?
Much of the other stuff makes sense and is easy to understand. Even the bit about doctors. But only physicians. Physicians are generally the ones that are sponsored by "big corporation," and therefore are always compelled to recommend one product over another regardless of its side effects it may have.
Meh. Maybe I should do one of these.
1. I didn't say it was a traumatic scarring experience. I didn't compare it to actually being raped. I put it out there in 5 words, as something that has affected me. The end.
2. A whore is someone who sells her body for money. Other common terms are prostitute, streetwalker, and ho. A slut is someone who sleeps around.
3. Cameras with flash make me look like I have a double chin. Which I don't.
2. A whore is someone who sells her body for money. Other common terms are prostitute, streetwalker, and ho. A slut is someone who sleeps around.
3. Cameras with flash make me look like I have a double chin. Which I don't.
Sorry. I go and read Muzz's post, and everyone's so damned supportive and kind and just small posts of amusement or encouragement, so I think maybe it's okay for me to do one, I've been wanting to let things out for a while now, and what happens? I get attacked. Scroll through all the posts here, look at the really long ones, and tell me why I SHOULDN'T be testy. I didn't post this to ask for pity or advice or damnation, I just wanted to get some things off my chest, and you know what? Exactly what I was scared would happen, happened. I've been judged, damned, told what to do, and made to defend myself. Of COURSE I'm testy. Maybe Muzz's watchers are nicer than mine, or maybe I revealed too much, or I don't know what, I'm half tempted to tear this shit down, but that would ruin the whole point of it. This is who I am, world, and now you know, go ahead and hate me.
So yeah, I'm testy.
So yeah, I'm testy.
Sweetie, I can't give you much advice with most of the stuff you've got written there but I can tell you one thing. Cut yourself some slack. You probably don't remember me but I met in Seattle at whatever the hell that con that was. I had you do a commission for me. Your as cute as all hell and don't ever think differently. Your prize to anyone lucky enough to win your affection and don't settle for anything less then someone who knows that you are a prize. As for not dancing anymore, you should. Dance naked in front of your teddy bear, trust me he'll love it!
Wow... In your position (as a popular artist), that took some guts...
I really can sympathize with some of your feelings, not many, but some. One in particular is decision-making: The more important and personal a decision is, the more I feel I need to ask other people for confirmation. It's just a "thing", I think, that some people have.
I know I can't be of great help, since I live massively far away, and I don't know "the rest of you" that well, but I offer you three nuggets anyway:
* You always come across as a caring person, in your words and in your art, no matter what the subject material.
* You really can't please everyone all the time. It's an old cliche, but it's so fucking true.
* Find a collar you'd love to own, and buy it. For yourself. Wear it.
I really can sympathize with some of your feelings, not many, but some. One in particular is decision-making: The more important and personal a decision is, the more I feel I need to ask other people for confirmation. It's just a "thing", I think, that some people have.
I know I can't be of great help, since I live massively far away, and I don't know "the rest of you" that well, but I offer you three nuggets anyway:
* You always come across as a caring person, in your words and in your art, no matter what the subject material.
* You really can't please everyone all the time. It's an old cliche, but it's so fucking true.
* Find a collar you'd love to own, and buy it. For yourself. Wear it.
Well you have guts Ksharra :) i see alot of statements from you and Muzz's boards that I am like too. *hug* but i hope getting it out turns into a positive to you, nothing here you should spend time being ashamed of and wallowing in, use it as a prism to focus yourself and understand what you don't like and let go of regrets.
Putting everything out there like this takes guts. I applaud you for that, I don't know that I could do the same. Though I will say honestly that you're not alone in that many of the things you're written here I can personally relate to.
Sometimes it's hard to figure out how to undo things about ourselves. Especially when they're things that we don't understand, or things that have been done to us beyond our control. Sometimes the best thing to do, is just walk away from them for a short time, and not think about them. Then you can come back to them with a clear head, and that usually leads to better choices. Ever been playing a game, or working on something and gotten frustrated? You stop for a while, then go back to it later and blow right through it? A lot of things in life work this way.
The main thing is to keep yourself from getting frustrated with yourself.
After you manage that, the rest of the things you want to do, come a lot easier.
*wags tail and hugs*
X
Sometimes it's hard to figure out how to undo things about ourselves. Especially when they're things that we don't understand, or things that have been done to us beyond our control. Sometimes the best thing to do, is just walk away from them for a short time, and not think about them. Then you can come back to them with a clear head, and that usually leads to better choices. Ever been playing a game, or working on something and gotten frustrated? You stop for a while, then go back to it later and blow right through it? A lot of things in life work this way.
The main thing is to keep yourself from getting frustrated with yourself.
After you manage that, the rest of the things you want to do, come a lot easier.
*wags tail and hugs*
X
"I don't know what i want to be when i grow up, but I'm already there."
I feel the same way. And there' is so much I'd like to get off my chest but too many of my loved ones would be hurt in the process. For this work I admire you the most. It must have taken a lot of guts to do. Keep up the great progress.
I feel the same way. And there' is so much I'd like to get off my chest but too many of my loved ones would be hurt in the process. For this work I admire you the most. It must have taken a lot of guts to do. Keep up the great progress.
I may not fully understand how you feel or what you been though but you remind me of my girlfriend who went through the same thing as well. I agree with your boyfriend too as I try to make my GF think about the good things in her life that she has now and not the bad stuff and about what she went though in her past. I admire you for letting these things out of you mind as I try to suggest the same thing to my GF many times. I don't judge people on there past but on who they are now like you (^_^) You an incredible person and I hope many good things happens to you in the future. Stay strong and stay happy
If only everyone cold be so hosest. One look at this drought tears to my eyes I admit im screwd up to I with everyone wold have the guts to admit it insed of just takeing the pis out of everyonels who dose admit it I hate people like that.
Every one is screwd up every one in the whole world and people who can't admit ti sholdent take it out on every onels.
Every one is screwd up every one in the whole world and people who can't admit ti sholdent take it out on every onels.
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