I almost didn't post this ^^;;

It's just a lil Vent. Not depression (I tried that, the Therapist called me a goof.) SO Theres no need to worry.

I do really really wish more things would go right. Starting to get hard to tell when I'm genuinely happy or just feel good. Yes theres a difference and I feel like I never have time to even explain it to myself.

The really stupid part about it is, AT LARGE, Most aspects of my life aren't that bad. Sure I'm chest deep in a sand dune of unexplainable despair, what with all the federal trouble I'm in..

But I've always been like this, according to my mom (who also called me a goof for going to a therapist) So why?

I googled it (for half an hour) and I don't know what it is.

Doesn't matter anyway. I just have to endure it.




I'll move this to scraps when I feel better. And I WILL feel better. I AM canid. Just a matter of time.