# All I've ever known was sadness...being alone...unloved...just feeling the empty coldness that I am forced to live day after day...
So much so I don't know how I go on...every day I hope...I pray that this sadness is just a dream that I could just wake up from...
No...it isn't so...this is a nightmare and to dream is what I want...yes to sleep is all I have left...is the only happiness I have ever known...
Or maybe I am wrong...I do have someone there...others by my side...They are my dreams...thou I wake up to this heart ache...
I know I can dream blissfully....I can experience a fleeting happiness...even for just a moment...that is enough for now~

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This lovely pic was a request my awesome best friend was so kind enough to draw for me.
Is it so wrong to want something that is always denied you? To just be happy and sleep with a smile...
Sp....no, I....That's all I ever wanted....I'm not allowed that one true happiness...
But I know I have another type of happiness~ The kind that is always around me.
It...They may not be the solution to my problems....but they are there to ease the hurt and loneliness.
For now that is enough to let me sleep well....thank you...my friends....