Lame drawing is lame, and I don't really care.
I spent the whole time drawing it, Crying my damn eyes out.

I keep trying to talk about it, But every time I do, no one REALLY understand how deep it's cutting me.
I fucking Moved out, to my Boyfriends parents, to get out of my house that we were living in.
I couldn't bring my cat, cuz his step dad is highly allergic.....
I cried then,
I continued crying, because I couldn't fucking ring him with me.
I was so mad, I didn't even want to move then...If I couldn't bring him...
I saw him every other day after, Just to make sure he knew I wasn't gone forever,
He'd looked in my room, noticed it was empty and just walked away...
He purs really obnoxiously when theres something wrong with him, and I knew he was confused when I left...God, I just didn't get a chance to tell him what was going on.

(Call me crazy, but me and my cat have a spiritual link bond. I can tell what he's thinking, just as much as he understand what I'm saying and feeling. We can communicate...through our minds and feelings)

A couple days after I moved out, he was sitting with my sister, and she guessed he burned his foot on the heater she has, and he ran away...
5 days later, he hasn't been to the house, He hasn't come when I Come and call him.
It's been 7-8 days now, and they till haven't seen him.
I even went down to where all the stray cats hang out, and he wasn't there either....

God, It hurts SO fucking bad, knowing my fucking baby left because I did too......
I left him confused, and probably angry with me....
I just wanted to bring him home so bad, but he just doesn't come when I call....

Ugh, no one fucking understands what I'm feeling at all. "Oh he'll come back" "Cats tend to disappear and come back sometimes a month later"
No, My cat NEVER left longer then a day without coming home to Eat and see me.
This is NOT like him to disappear.

Then people are like "Well maybe someone found him, and at least he's adopted and fed and loved"
Like Really? Are you trying to say I don't fucking love him, and that I should just let him fucking go?
NO.
My cat doesn't LIKE strangers. Doesn't like people he doesn't know, and HATES cars, he wont come within 20 feet of a person he doesn't know, or even a parked car.
I'm going to go look around again tomorrow.,
I swear to god If I dont find him, I'll hurt the guy who lives next door thats apparently known for doing something with the cats in the neighborhood.
Fuck.......

I just want my fucking piece of soul back.,...
And no one fucking understands.
Nope, I just smile and laugh anyway like everything's FINE.
He's what got me through my heartbreak.
He's what made me strong, and quit cutting....
He was my REASON for not killing myself,
Because I had my baby to take care of.
And now he's just GONE? And its my fucking fault.....

I just want you back luv, just please come when I call, okay?