[Poem also placed here.]
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Will you ever really learn your place?
Will you ever try to stop this madness and let things be,
or will you just sink deeper into your own demise?

You hide behind those words you speak,
dreaming up those fantasies.
You only do it to hide from the shame,
from your pitiful self loathing and misinformed perceptions.

You sicken me really, and I simply can't stand to think of you.
But I must. Oh cruel fate, why must I see your face?
Taunting me, sneering behind your fake smiles and fake words.
That grin...it scares me.
Your smiles hide your lies, which hide your impure thoughts and sins.
And the saddest part is how you brought this all upon yourself.

Your homely visage could bring anyone to tears.
You know it's gotten that way from karma, right?
Everything you have had wrong with you is simply way...
A way that karmic law punishes you for past and present...

Oh how adorable~ You found someone? Someone true?
I hope they take that rotted heart of yours and pump some life into it.
Maybe if it finally starts to beat again,
you won't be such a waste of space.
I take that back.~ How could you ever amount to anything in life?
And cosplay? Don't be ridiculous!
Another way of covering up your sorry pathetic life,
pretending to be somebody else.
If even for a day, you always want to be someone else because of how miserable you are.
You know it and you will never admit it. You hate it really.
Hating that you know that you are so disgusting.

You have family so to speak in the paranormal.
They should be treasured, heed this.
They somehow love you despite it all...
And that takes courage if you ask me. IMHO~

You have a mate? Oh really? Let's seee.
Oh. It seems I spoke too soon.
So you have a paranormal mate and a human mate?
Doesn't that make you a bit of a little..ohhhh I dunno.
A SLUT?
WHORE?
DISGUSTING PIECE OF PROSTITUTIONAL GARBAGE?
Maybe...maybe just a little bit.
A lot.
Definitely so. Yet you shrug it off?
"Oh were meant to be!~" Don't make me vomit!
You don't belong on this earth. Why try?
Why go so far as to attempt to give your accidental life any meaning?
Well...other then to make those around you just as twisted as you.
To torment others and mess with their minds.

It's truly amazing though,
how you seem to fool the world,
as well as yourself m'dear~
You've gone so far down this rabbit-hole that you even believe the lies that spew out of your slimy cesspool of a mouth.
And you shall never truly know or understand it.
Your little to no self esteem, your insanity, your duplicitous nature.
You lie to the world behind those beautifully twisted smiles.
If you were an angel I would love to pluck those pretty wings out.
Thankfully you aren't...as if heaven would let you in anyways. HAH!
Your not going to like where you go when your gone.
Above and below won't want you. No, not with what you've done.
You'd wander, that's for sure.
Or maybe your soul will just simply fade away?
In the end you'll always die alone.
You'll always be...alone.

And in the end, you'll never understand it.
And even your friends and loved one, upon reading this;
They will snarl and assume and point the finger I bet.
But it's all in vain.
They'll never understand you like I do sadly...and even then I really don't understand you either.
Isn't that sad?

But think of it this way.
Even when the mask that hides the lies shall break.
Even when your rotten mound of flesh you call a heart stops beating.
Even when your family and friends break will away and despise you for all that you are.
Even when society shall never accept you and treats you like the freak of nature you are.
Even then...I can't escape you...and what you have done to me.
Your so horrible...and yet even though you'll be utterly alone, old, decrepit, and you are wheezing out your very last mournful breaths of life.
I am sadly here...unable to run away from you.
Unable to stop being near you.
Unable to look in the mirror...and not see you.
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A long time ago, me and a few past friends wrote this. I wanted to place it here, to remind me history repeats itself.