I had to post this quote.
Quick history: my ex-boyfriend from eight years ago was my world at that time. I had convinced myself that we would marry as soon as we were old enough. He believed he was a vampire (which, on this site is not an oddity), yet I was not convinced, but was still drawn to him by it (I was greatly into Buffy at this time).
I was not so enthralled with Buffy that I had to date anyone who thought that they were a vampire; he just had so much charisma (and for those of you that game, I'm talking like a charisma of five).
He was great....
But...
HE believe God was evil...pure evil. And at this time I was a Christian (I am not now). He insisted that I come to "see the light" and denounce God, and I lived my six months with him in constant division between him and God in my mind. It is very exhausting to maintain that kind of a division.
In any case, with that back story you may understand why this quote got to me while I was reading Jane Eyre in school at the time.
He became my God while I was with him, and when I finally broke up with him, I realized later that I never fully believed he was a vampire (although maybe an energy vampire- which do exist), and that I could not be persuaded to change my beliefs just because someone said to.
so here is the quote already (I'm pretty sure it is accurately copied, punctuation and all):
Jane Eyre quote
“Yet after all, my task was not an easy one: often I would rather have pleased than teased him. My future husband was becoming my whole world: and more than the world: almost my hope of heaven. He stood between me and every thought of religion, as an eclipse intervenes between man and the broad sun. I could not, in those days, see God for his creature: of whom I had made an idol.”
Quick history: my ex-boyfriend from eight years ago was my world at that time. I had convinced myself that we would marry as soon as we were old enough. He believed he was a vampire (which, on this site is not an oddity), yet I was not convinced, but was still drawn to him by it (I was greatly into Buffy at this time).
I was not so enthralled with Buffy that I had to date anyone who thought that they were a vampire; he just had so much charisma (and for those of you that game, I'm talking like a charisma of five).
He was great....
But...
HE believe God was evil...pure evil. And at this time I was a Christian (I am not now). He insisted that I come to "see the light" and denounce God, and I lived my six months with him in constant division between him and God in my mind. It is very exhausting to maintain that kind of a division.
In any case, with that back story you may understand why this quote got to me while I was reading Jane Eyre in school at the time.
He became my God while I was with him, and when I finally broke up with him, I realized later that I never fully believed he was a vampire (although maybe an energy vampire- which do exist), and that I could not be persuaded to change my beliefs just because someone said to.
so here is the quote already (I'm pretty sure it is accurately copied, punctuation and all):
Jane Eyre quote
“Yet after all, my task was not an easy one: often I would rather have pleased than teased him. My future husband was becoming my whole world: and more than the world: almost my hope of heaven. He stood between me and every thought of religion, as an eclipse intervenes between man and the broad sun. I could not, in those days, see God for his creature: of whom I had made an idol.”
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