I'm going through alot of heavy stuff right now.

I'd ring the mental health clinic but they don't want anything to do with me because I forget appointments and don't want to be in an ANXIETY GROUP MEETING...its Anxiety, a group of people will tear it for me.

I keep getting flashbacks, horrible flashbacks of things in my past even up to 'supposed' images of my real father (Who tried to kill me twice...) and its getting worse and worse...


I can't stay happy, i'll have rare moments of happiness then a bad memory or slump in my brain that'll just ruin me totally...

My mental health is fading fast and medications aren't working anymore - my insomnia is worse, my anxiety, my depression - and supposed psychosis.

I don't know how long it'll be before i'll end up having a mental breakdown again, i've had a minor one in the past...and my time is slowly ticking...

I just pray my Doctor can refer me to Guildford Hospital for testing and see what help I can get - in time.