I'm starting to hate myself. For real. I'm not even depressed, I'm just MAD. Mad at my total lack of anything. I see so many artists like Megasweet and Shikaro do absolutely gorgeous work with lines and they're stabilisers in sai are low, like S-3... I just can't do that well. I physically can't because I've been born with the shittiest combination of traits ever: I'm fussy, have a drive for art and shitty shaky hands that cannot allow me to adequately do anythinig at all. My usual work is SHIT and that's with S-7!

It's like a personal hell, I've got all these ideas I wanna let out but my useless body can't realise them. I don't even have a condition so I literally can't do anything about it to keep my bloody hand steady.

And don't even get me started on painting because I happen to be an absolute dumbfuck who can't wrap his teeny brain around it.

And that's why I haven't done much of ANYTHING lately. Or why I'm never really in a good mood and just pretending to be.

Oh right, I can't do details either. And I can't even vent via art since I keep failing to produce anything even slightly decent and it only ends up making me even more angry...