maybe it is all a lie, but if it is, make the lie your reality... if you grasp the outline of a void, eventually a clear image will form...you will find a reason to live.... there always I is one... if you look hard enough...only those who seek truth for the purpose of life will find it...those who live in shame shall find glory among it... trust me, something good will happen one day good, I don’t want you to go away, not now that we know each other
wow, you went through a lot when you were young... I cant believe your dad is actually that cruel..... if i were you, I would have killed him when he told you it was his fault....though about me... I may not seem it... but I do suffer depression a lot, I don’t know why, but I am borderline depression, have anger issues, and just plain don’t fit in because how i act.... also, my fursona isn’t actually fully fake.... when I was young, I had an imaginary friend who was a wolf, and I have slight schizophrenia, so my mood can change a bit for no reason, one second I seem happy, then the next am quiet and I will feel like everyone is worthless, if my father had said that to me.....well...lets just say he would most likely be missing a few limbs....one, I have anger issues two, I collect swords three, I just hate him anyways(he never spent any time with me as a child, too busy with work)I had to take to collecting swords and taking sword fighting lessons to take out my anger(I think of swords as a way to store some of my anger in so it doesn’t all build up)
this words he said made realize how much he cared for me and than i realized when i was in darger of ending my own life, he give me the strength to contuine and he said if i were to die, he would use magic to bring back to life and that if i live he will give a reason to live. my reason to live varies alot, but the number one reason is to be will him  shad0w0lf i had feelings for him even earily before the words, but they were of friendship, not love until, i saw he cared for me.