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I am obsessed with my self-image. I absolutely hate how I look and stare in horror at the mirror every day, over analyzing myself and what I can do to change myself.
I have never accepted myself for who I am. I hate myself.
I have never done any drug and never want to. I am unnecessarily against taking any sort of medication. I believe laughter is the best medicine.
I am only truly happy when I am in my car. My car is very symbolic to me, and I wish people around me understood. It is a symbol of my strong desire to succeed and win. It is the only thing I know that will love me unconditionally... and that's sad, as I'm well aware that it's inanimate.
I'm terrified of loss. I've lost so much in my life I can't bear the thought of losing anything else. I never take risks because I'm afraid of what could happen.
I wish I could lose some weight. A lot of people tell me that I look fine how I am, but I have absolutely no confidence in my figure any more. I cry inside every time I look at how much I've let myself go since high school. I have a problem with "comfort eating". When I'm stressed or upset, I eat. I'm getting better about it, but the weight won't drop off... I am a very tiny girl, but I'm now 20lbs overweight. I used to be right at an average weight. I miss it so much, but going to the gym and changing my diet hasn't helped anything. I'm so upset about it that I want to cry in anger and frustration every night.
I don't enjoy drawing any more because I feel like no one cares. I used to draw because I liked the attention and feedback. It made me feel wanted.
I miss my friends. I have very few friends anymore. I have no one to talk to. I sign on and no one will talk to me. I flip through my phone and know that none of them will want to talk to me. I hang out with friends and we have nothing to say anymore. I've become a blob of nothingness, just a grey blotch in a picture.
My best friends live in other states. I miss them more than anything and wish they lived closer.
I turned to my car to make me happy. Even so, there's no one there to listen to me. No one really cares about my car or the adventures I have or want to take in it. No one shares the same enthusiasm I do.
I feel extremely underpaid and underappreciated.
I'm lonely.
I have never accepted myself for who I am. I hate myself.
I have never done any drug and never want to. I am unnecessarily against taking any sort of medication. I believe laughter is the best medicine.
I am only truly happy when I am in my car. My car is very symbolic to me, and I wish people around me understood. It is a symbol of my strong desire to succeed and win. It is the only thing I know that will love me unconditionally... and that's sad, as I'm well aware that it's inanimate.
I'm terrified of loss. I've lost so much in my life I can't bear the thought of losing anything else. I never take risks because I'm afraid of what could happen.
I wish I could lose some weight. A lot of people tell me that I look fine how I am, but I have absolutely no confidence in my figure any more. I cry inside every time I look at how much I've let myself go since high school. I have a problem with "comfort eating". When I'm stressed or upset, I eat. I'm getting better about it, but the weight won't drop off... I am a very tiny girl, but I'm now 20lbs overweight. I used to be right at an average weight. I miss it so much, but going to the gym and changing my diet hasn't helped anything. I'm so upset about it that I want to cry in anger and frustration every night.
I don't enjoy drawing any more because I feel like no one cares. I used to draw because I liked the attention and feedback. It made me feel wanted.
I miss my friends. I have very few friends anymore. I have no one to talk to. I sign on and no one will talk to me. I flip through my phone and know that none of them will want to talk to me. I hang out with friends and we have nothing to say anymore. I've become a blob of nothingness, just a grey blotch in a picture.
My best friends live in other states. I miss them more than anything and wish they lived closer.
I turned to my car to make me happy. Even so, there's no one there to listen to me. No one really cares about my car or the adventures I have or want to take in it. No one shares the same enthusiasm I do.
I feel extremely underpaid and underappreciated.
I'm lonely.
Category Artwork (Digital) / General Furry Art
Species Wolf
Size 877 x 1280px
File Size 75.9 kB
Adulthood is full of stress, hurt, regret, loneliness. :< *hugs* Are you still down in KY? That's not too far. I live in Pittsburgh these days, we should find a time to meet up and hang out at some point.
Re: your car, I remember seeing pictures of it on Facebook all the time - it really ingrained in my head what a mini cooper looked like, so I recognized the make of it immediately when I started hanging out with the person I am dating now. XD He also rather loves his mini cooper. It seems to come with owning one!
Body/weight issues can be hard to grapple with. I used to be comfortable with myself, but then my previous partner destroyed my self-esteem and made me feel that I was unattractive and mostly on account of not being super thin. It has taken me some time to shake those feelings and feel mostly satisfied with myself once again. I hope that someday you can feel good about yourself as well. <3 From what I have seen you are quite pretty.
Re: your car, I remember seeing pictures of it on Facebook all the time - it really ingrained in my head what a mini cooper looked like, so I recognized the make of it immediately when I started hanging out with the person I am dating now. XD He also rather loves his mini cooper. It seems to come with owning one!
Body/weight issues can be hard to grapple with. I used to be comfortable with myself, but then my previous partner destroyed my self-esteem and made me feel that I was unattractive and mostly on account of not being super thin. It has taken me some time to shake those feelings and feel mostly satisfied with myself once again. I hope that someday you can feel good about yourself as well. <3 From what I have seen you are quite pretty.
Hey, lady
You know you can text me or call me WHENEVER you need someone to talk to, I recently got a new phone and lost your number so please text me when you see this!; I know I'm literally on the other side of the country, but maybe I can set aside some funds to plan a visit, or have you visit me c: I think you'd like California, and now that I live on my own you're always welcome in this house.
As for your car, I will say I'm one of the folks who doesn't share the same enthusiasm for vehicles as you do, but I have my own "silly" things that bring me happiness...things that others scoff of as childish or mundane or otherwise unworthy of my devotion. To me, that car shows how much of a successful adult you've become and how you saved and accomplished a very big goal! Not alot of people our age can say they bought themselves a new car.
Drawing shouldn't be about attention; Because the day it fades is the day you begin to loathe it. Draw because it makes YOU happy. Like anything else in life, you shouldn't pursue endeavors for the sake of anyone but yourself
And Body image; it's what you make of it. After highschool I stopped caring about anything and ended up getting to be a fat ass. For a while, I was bothered by it and had self esteem issues but I realized; Being fat never stopped me from doing things I love or being loved by friends/boyfriends; Why should I care what others think? I'm happy with who I am and no one can take that away from me. You shouldn't let the s,all things like that upset you; You're not fat by any means and you're a very attractive woman c: plus, you have one of the most addictive and wonderful personalities in anyone I've ever met.
Stay strong, Jess. I know there are down times but think of the good you have in your life and the friends that care. We may be miles away but we love you all the same c:
You know you can text me or call me WHENEVER you need someone to talk to, I recently got a new phone and lost your number so please text me when you see this!; I know I'm literally on the other side of the country, but maybe I can set aside some funds to plan a visit, or have you visit me c: I think you'd like California, and now that I live on my own you're always welcome in this house.
As for your car, I will say I'm one of the folks who doesn't share the same enthusiasm for vehicles as you do, but I have my own "silly" things that bring me happiness...things that others scoff of as childish or mundane or otherwise unworthy of my devotion. To me, that car shows how much of a successful adult you've become and how you saved and accomplished a very big goal! Not alot of people our age can say they bought themselves a new car.
Drawing shouldn't be about attention; Because the day it fades is the day you begin to loathe it. Draw because it makes YOU happy. Like anything else in life, you shouldn't pursue endeavors for the sake of anyone but yourself
And Body image; it's what you make of it. After highschool I stopped caring about anything and ended up getting to be a fat ass. For a while, I was bothered by it and had self esteem issues but I realized; Being fat never stopped me from doing things I love or being loved by friends/boyfriends; Why should I care what others think? I'm happy with who I am and no one can take that away from me. You shouldn't let the s,all things like that upset you; You're not fat by any means and you're a very attractive woman c: plus, you have one of the most addictive and wonderful personalities in anyone I've ever met.
Stay strong, Jess. I know there are down times but think of the good you have in your life and the friends that care. We may be miles away but we love you all the same c:
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