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So long story short, I haven't been feeling very good about what I've been doing. The art that used to flow out of me feels more like work now than it does entertainment. Meanwhile, it's the end of the school year and animated student films are popping out of colleges all over. They all seem to be full of passion I don't seem to have, and enthusiasm I can't hold onto for very long.
Are these people having to fight as hard as I have to?
Are they genuinely having fun and I'm the one seeing what I do as work?
Am I ever going to reach that level before I burn out for good?
One of the student films that hit me the hardest was out of CalArts, by someone I used to talk to. It's incredible, but I couldn't stand to finish it because it was so good. It made me feel terrible. Of course that's not his intention, but it made me wonder why I can't stick with a project as long as he could. Given - it was for school, but it was his style and inspiration all the same. Could I make something as brilliant and entertaining in storytelling without the animation skills? Could I improve my craft enough so I could see folks like him eye to eye one day, instead of looking up from the feet of the giants? There's been a lot of questions in my head with no real answers, other than to study and try to improve further, and hope new abilities would make it fun for me once again.
I was tempted to contact him and ask him these things personally, but he's since moved on. He no longer watches me and I believe he's left DA. So it goes I guess.
Are these people having to fight as hard as I have to?
Are they genuinely having fun and I'm the one seeing what I do as work?
Am I ever going to reach that level before I burn out for good?
One of the student films that hit me the hardest was out of CalArts, by someone I used to talk to. It's incredible, but I couldn't stand to finish it because it was so good. It made me feel terrible. Of course that's not his intention, but it made me wonder why I can't stick with a project as long as he could. Given - it was for school, but it was his style and inspiration all the same. Could I make something as brilliant and entertaining in storytelling without the animation skills? Could I improve my craft enough so I could see folks like him eye to eye one day, instead of looking up from the feet of the giants? There's been a lot of questions in my head with no real answers, other than to study and try to improve further, and hope new abilities would make it fun for me once again.
I was tempted to contact him and ask him these things personally, but he's since moved on. He no longer watches me and I believe he's left DA. So it goes I guess.
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If the film contained a lot of computer-generated effects, you might look for him at CGTalk ( http://forums.cgsociety.org/ ). Many digital artists hang out there.
Thanks dude! I used to be a bit of workaholic myself, and I used to devote a lot more time to painting, but the internet has become more and more of a time vampire for me. I've cut out some of the problem places though since I realized the issue, heh. =P
I like your idea of figuring out specifically what I want and laying it out. I know that, partly due to college and the wide variety of things I did, that my end-goal got more and more obscured. Did I want to be an illustrator? 3D lighting artist? 3D environment artist? Background painter? etc. I do believe I'd like to be a storyteller/story artist the most though. Maybe I'll have to put all my efforts towards that. =)
I like your idea of figuring out specifically what I want and laying it out. I know that, partly due to college and the wide variety of things I did, that my end-goal got more and more obscured. Did I want to be an illustrator? 3D lighting artist? 3D environment artist? Background painter? etc. I do believe I'd like to be a storyteller/story artist the most though. Maybe I'll have to put all my efforts towards that. =)
It's funny how I've been thinking bout you a ton recently. Heck I changed my Twitter icon to the pic of Cobalt surfing just last night. Love it so much. Pretty coincidental as I've felt the same way though with my studies in general as I'm back in college. I'm not gonna go into an epic comment here though I could really. I'll be to the point. I'm sure those others have had just the same feelings you've had. It tends to happen but it can be moved past. N' once you do move past it, things will be all the better n' you'll look back n' wonder why you ever had these thoughts. Trust me on this:3 *hugs* I've know you've been busy but if you wanna talk more, my contact info is on my FA page. I'd love to hear from you. Also I...kinda...lost your AIM handle when I changed to different account
There in lies your problem Temiree. You're comparing your self to others. Why? They're not you.
It's much like high-school. You're still trying to find your self. And it's proving difficult. Your path in life, isn't clear. Almost no ones is (Unless super controlling family)
My only suggestion? See what makes you smile. Find what makes you go "OH YEAH! I can do that!" Not, "That's out of my league" Mayhaps you've a hidden muse.
What are you doing that feels so taxing? The ideas? The motions to draw them? Or? I wish I had the miracle words that'd pull you outta your slump. You're depressed
(We can spot our own) So, try to see if you can't throw off that stone, as it crushes the will out of you to continue. Because if you cave now. You, just might regret it.
It's much like high-school. You're still trying to find your self. And it's proving difficult. Your path in life, isn't clear. Almost no ones is (Unless super controlling family)
My only suggestion? See what makes you smile. Find what makes you go "OH YEAH! I can do that!" Not, "That's out of my league" Mayhaps you've a hidden muse.
What are you doing that feels so taxing? The ideas? The motions to draw them? Or? I wish I had the miracle words that'd pull you outta your slump. You're depressed
(We can spot our own) So, try to see if you can't throw off that stone, as it crushes the will out of you to continue. Because if you cave now. You, just might regret it.
Yeah I definitely need to stop doing that. I need to find that mindset where I can look at other's work and be inspired, rather than discouraged. You really nailed it though with it being about comparing myself to others too much.
The most taxing part of artwork for me lately has been refining the details I think. I wanna get from point A to point B however long it takes, but I lack patience. These student films are huge projects too, but doing big realistic paintings like I used to has been trouble, and they're small in comparison. =P Maybe I ought to have a few pictures going at once to keep things fresh, if I can manage it.
I certainly won't quit now though. As you said, all I would do is regret it further down, and wonder "what if?"
The most taxing part of artwork for me lately has been refining the details I think. I wanna get from point A to point B however long it takes, but I lack patience. These student films are huge projects too, but doing big realistic paintings like I used to has been trouble, and they're small in comparison. =P Maybe I ought to have a few pictures going at once to keep things fresh, if I can manage it.
I certainly won't quit now though. As you said, all I would do is regret it further down, and wonder "what if?"
Temiree, the best words I can offer you are the ones echoed in every artist's mind.
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Keep fighting.
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Keep fighting.
2 things; First, I love the style you did this piece in and would love to see more like, just my own opinion on that.
Second, yeah I see that kind of stuff everyday and I just reaffirm myself to try harder each day to get closer to it. Schedules help and so do making up bigger projects than normal, but it's important to not go all out with them. Make small incremental projects that gradually get bigger.
Hey man, we all feel that shit and I wanna say; if it don't feel like work for some people then I don't think its art. At some point, the dedication of working a day that you'd rather play games or sleep because you know its important is way more vital.
Second, yeah I see that kind of stuff everyday and I just reaffirm myself to try harder each day to get closer to it. Schedules help and so do making up bigger projects than normal, but it's important to not go all out with them. Make small incremental projects that gradually get bigger.
Hey man, we all feel that shit and I wanna say; if it don't feel like work for some people then I don't think its art. At some point, the dedication of working a day that you'd rather play games or sleep because you know its important is way more vital.
I'm actually very happy about how this came out too, which is interesting considering the circumstances. Every stroke, including the slashes I put on it, were spontaneous and driven from my own emotions and how I felt. It's been very long since I had such emotion surging through onto a canvas. Maybe that's all it took to make it special. x) Schedules are probably a good idea. Maybe I 'ought to try that, even if its vague, like finishing at least one sketch a day of anything.
Draw more!
And yes, that's happened to me too where a painting is just crap for so long but then changes into something amazing. One of them even got a DD on DeviantART. xD (Operation Alpha Centauri) I remember being tempted to quit on it because it just wasn't interesting enough, but I'm really glad I didn't.
And yes, that's happened to me too where a painting is just crap for so long but then changes into something amazing. One of them even got a DD on DeviantART. xD (Operation Alpha Centauri) I remember being tempted to quit on it because it just wasn't interesting enough, but I'm really glad I didn't.
I have the same issues myself, I can't seem to ever finish anything and everything I'm doing now is just super crazy sketchy nowhere near as good as my other stuff, but that stuff feels like a chore just to come up with something that I ended up hating. I'm sure the greats go through the sae stuf, but I don't know somehow they get through it, some way.
Yeah, that's the question. If they do have the same issue, how do they push themselves through it so easily? x) I was tempted to ask the guy who I mentioned in the artist comments about this sort of thing, but as I said, he seems to have got up and left this the DA art world. =P
You sound alot like me :( I worry that my passion for drawing, writing, and animation has hit permanent rock bottom. It sometimes feels like work to me now than entertainment. Every time I see some amazing work of art, I get so jealous and feel so terrible, because I know that it's the craft I'm working toward, but that I know I could barely push myself to do it, and it'll be noticeable in the end.
I hate it so much :(
But, sir, you are a BEAUTIFUL artist! You aren't looking up from the feet of giants, as you are one of my favorite artists on this site. To me, you're a giant, and I strive to be anything like you :3 I know I'm just some goon on the internet, but Temiree, you inspire me to push on every time you upload your work :3
I hate it so much :(
But, sir, you are a BEAUTIFUL artist! You aren't looking up from the feet of giants, as you are one of my favorite artists on this site. To me, you're a giant, and I strive to be anything like you :3 I know I'm just some goon on the internet, but Temiree, you inspire me to push on every time you upload your work :3
Awww thank you dude! *hugs* That really means a lot. At the very least I'm glad I uploaded this piece. It's helping me see how so many people have had the exact same issue as me - of seeing their passion turn into work. I wish you the best in getting out of your rut! =(
I think your worrying yourself too much man. Its mostly about presentation. I mean look at this animation. Themes hardly any and look how many views its gotten. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ez90azx4LKk&feature=youtube_gdata_player just take a break maybe if ya can and then get back into it.
What you're worrying about is something a LOT of people go through :3 I've gone through that a LOT, but what really helps is knowing that if you're feeling how you do right now, the passion is totally there :3 It's when you let go of that worry that your feelings can be free to come back again, but while you're preoccupied with worries, your heart fills with worry instead of what you WANT to be feeling, leaving no room to feel much else. Once you let go of that worry, your heart flushes all that stuff out and the space left behind will gradually fill up again with the right energies :] In the end, when you doubt that sort of thing, when you doubt your emotions, faith is the way through :] If you need to talk to anyone about this kinda stuff, I've been through the very same thing, and I've reached the light at the end of the tunnel, so don't hesitate if you need to talk =] Keep your chin up amigo, even the very best go through this :] Good luck! <3
Thanks so much Rockk. =) I really love your interpretation, and it does make a lot of sense. I'm sure college was partly responsible for filling my heart with worry, as well as keeping me away from my art in general. And thanks for offering out your hand too should this become an issue again. I'll definitely keep that in mind. ^^ You can really take complex ideas and explain them in such an eloquent way.
Your drawing is beautifully expressive, if a bit sad.
Never compare yourself to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
If you feel that you're not passionate about what you're doing, go back to your roots - what made you interested in it in the first place? What ideas excited you then? Try doing something a bit different to recharge your batteries.
You are capable of incredible work and there is no reason for you to feel inadequate. Hang in there, and don't get discouraged! We're all pulling for you. :)
Never compare yourself to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
If you feel that you're not passionate about what you're doing, go back to your roots - what made you interested in it in the first place? What ideas excited you then? Try doing something a bit different to recharge your batteries.
You are capable of incredible work and there is no reason for you to feel inadequate. Hang in there, and don't get discouraged! We're all pulling for you. :)
Thank you so much Soba. That was very heartwarming to read. It made me feel very special. ^^ I think I will be trying to do just that - going back to my roots. By that, I mean being unafraid to try something new, even if it's wrong the first time, or first ten times. Maybe why I feel uninspired is because I've been drawing in too narrow of a spectrum too long. I guess we'll see where my inspiration takes me. =)
I've encountered similar things with my studies of Japanese. Instead of fun and interest it became work. These feelings are pretty normal for those of us who study our passions. Breaking them down and learning their parts make them seem not as glamorous as we used to think. The point is we must not give up. Find maybe a new way to study, a new way to use them and express your skills. Don't let it get stagnant. :3 Like some others have said, chin up, Temiree. Perseverance!!! We shouldn't give up on the passions we have.
I'm sure if I gave up on my passion, later down the line I'd feel even worse because all I would think about would "what if I had pushed on? What could have happened?" For now, I'll be doing my best to keep my chin up, opening up my boundaries and trying to find that fearlessness again that I used to have when I was younger.
Best of luck with your Japanese studies! Ever since I discovered Iron Chef, I've been really curious about traveling there one day to take in the culture... and the food. xD Where did you get inspired to study them?
Best of luck with your Japanese studies! Ever since I discovered Iron Chef, I've been really curious about traveling there one day to take in the culture... and the food. xD Where did you get inspired to study them?
As lame as it sounds, Anime was my original inspiration. But I quickly opened up to all aspects of the culture, majoring in Asian Studies through college. Graduating in a few days actually.
And you should totally go. It's just simply an amazing place to be and experience. And I never had a bad meal the whole month I was there!
And you should totally go. It's just simply an amazing place to be and experience. And I never had a bad meal the whole month I was there!
Try... Try to be free, as Steevie Wonder defined it. Creativity happens, as I see it, in the sweet spot halfway between child's play and hard work. I don't know how much art and literature are interchangeable, but whenever I stumbled on a writer's block, it happened because I didn't read other things, because I was too busy with my day job and socializing that I stopped exploring the dark word intrinsics and the multiverse of the written word.
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