for a person whom I once held dear,
from once was so close so near,
I cannot hold you at such regards,
for the pain you left with me was just too hard...

so hard so as to leave me cold and hollow,
from such pain I wish no morrow...

for in my childhood in which I held dear,
there was a man I grew to revere,
A man wise who taught me how to grow,
in ways he's shown me how to know,
He shown me Honesty, Compassion, and the many teachings from Above,
for he and his ways I did truly love.

but that fatal day came before me,
all I wished was to implore thee...

and never was a pain like this for one to be torn away and beat down,
for one to be pulled apart for who I was becoming...

My heart felt as if I was being impaled that day,
with the slow thrust of words that tore through me,
as your sinister blade ignored everything but my core,
as you told me to destroy the things I now stand for,
to take on what I once ran away from,
to believe in what I dare not become,
and still your hurtful words weren't done...

on that day I wished to die,
and still you wonder why I cried,
all I wanted to be was me and not a lie...

not to be what was all shown,
those falsified words those broken promises...

then upon that day while I was crushed,
a heartwarming embrace took its place,
as those loving arms came to comfort...

I lay there broken and sick,
as my hero helped me with his compassion...

but to know the truth upon what he was tore me even more...
to sit there in the Arms of my Hero, My Father Figure My...Me...
was what broke me...

to now realize I but stood alone,
but to realize there where only lies shown,
and with a great coldness I have grown since that horrible day...

all I truly wanted was love...
and in return was given a mandatory hug...
not the true compassion in which I've come to love...
...
...
I will never forgive you...