I tell ya.. what a year this as been for me.. it's just been so delightfully shitty and it's making me not even wanting to look forward to anything the rest of the year... whats the point

my boyfriends dad is now in the hospital..
he left me a message yesterday afternoon and i could just hear him shaking as he was telling me that his mom had to call an ambulance to take his dad to the hospital because he was constantly coughing up blood and he was just getting worse.. turns out he had a heart attack and has pneumonia at the same time.. he mentioned to me his dad stopped breathing for 10 minutes and the doctors told him and his mom they might as well say their goodbyes because if it but my some sort of miracle he started to breath again.. so they took him in a helicopter to another hospital and paralyzed him to see what the damage was to his organs and to stop the pain...

got a message this morning of my boyfriend telling him the hospital called them and told them his dads organs are failing him.. and i think the worse is about to happen.. but still he assured me his dad was a fighter and i believe him... never know maybe he'll pull out of it
it's just so hard and im stressed out of my mind.. first my mam-maw dies.. a tornado comes through my small town and now there is a chance my boyfriends dad will not make it.. i just don't know what i could do or say to make things better... and it hurts me to see/hear him in such pain.. i just hope he knows i'm always and forever going to be here for him..