2/27/12

My birthday is roughly a week away. When the hell did it get so close? Not that I'm complaining or anything, but damn son.

Anyways. I've actually had a lot on my mind lately, and I've been working up the motivation to actually put some of it down on paper.

When I work on stuff, I'm usually going through this little internal conflict of sorts. One one side is my imaginative, creative side, I guess. And on the other is my critical side. I guess.

(At this point I ran out of space in my journal. What follows is pretty much written at the time this image was uploaded.)

The supposed conflict mostly takes place before I actually start working on something. The long and the short of it is that one side goes "Yeah! Go for it!" and the other is all "No! That idea sucks!" and externally I'm just sitting there staring at the paper. It's even worse in public, especially when the side that cheering me on is advocating something fetishy.

Neither side seems to be the best for me to do. If I listened only to my critical side, I'd get very little artwork done; if I listened only to my creative side, I'd draw every little stupid idea and image that crossed my mind, just drawing it for the sake of drawing rather than, say, drawing it because I thought it would be awesome. I suppose the best thing to do would be to strike a healthy balance between the two. I'm actually a little apprehensive about saying stuff like this, 'cause part of me thinks it sounds like something Zaedrin would say, and fuck that guy. I hate him.

God, now I'm digressing. Does any of this make any sense? At all?