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by Moonbyrn
Anthro Artist
14 years ago
incoming rant... pew pew
I'm going to be 25 this year, quarter of a century. What have I done? Nothing, nothing I've wanted to do. Sure, I went to school, what a scam that was. I suppose if I went to a good school, then this outlook would be different. If I went to art school like a wanted to. If money wasn't an issue, but it always is. Always. This would be the biggest regret I have right now. I'm sure if I didn't have these ridiculous loans from this sham of a college, my life would be SO much better. I did get married before I expected to (actually, I didn't think I was going to at all!) and I do adore my pets more than most people I know... I've grown up a lot. It's... I don't even recognize myself sometimes.
Some of the reactions I have and the way I think sometimes scare me. I can be so judgmental at times, so harsh for no reason. Maybe I'm just tired of seeing the same, plastic people... with the same plastic, premade looks and styles. They even carry themselves like robots, and the only thing important is what's on the screen in front of them and THEIR FEELINGS WEE WOO pussies (even though I'm posting this crap!). No one seems real anymore. But maybe this is just the city I'm in.
I can't draw hands. I haven't been to a con yet. I haven't been to a fur meet. I barely draw anymore. I've fuckin' LOST it. I haven't talked to any of my friends on the phone in... eons. I don't talk to much of my family anymore. I'm friends with them on facebook, but they're miles away from me... not just literally but in life experiences and attitudes. Most of them came from super rich families, well, we were broke. And looked at weird like, "They don't even have a computer!" Granted, I do have more now than I ever did growing up... and I have myself and the hubby to thank.
This last year, I guess I did pick up a few neat things I've always wanted, like my industrial piercing and my jeep (that I keep pouring money into cuz it's super fun) and we're moving back to the east coast. Also came to terms with the gender stuff, and am able to talk to the hubby about it... sorta. Always knew about it, but ignored it because it's 'taboo' and unnerving in a way.
(Sorry for the bitching... I needed to rant. :|)
I'm going to be 25 this year, quarter of a century. What have I done? Nothing, nothing I've wanted to do. Sure, I went to school, what a scam that was. I suppose if I went to a good school, then this outlook would be different. If I went to art school like a wanted to. If money wasn't an issue, but it always is. Always. This would be the biggest regret I have right now. I'm sure if I didn't have these ridiculous loans from this sham of a college, my life would be SO much better. I did get married before I expected to (actually, I didn't think I was going to at all!) and I do adore my pets more than most people I know... I've grown up a lot. It's... I don't even recognize myself sometimes.
Some of the reactions I have and the way I think sometimes scare me. I can be so judgmental at times, so harsh for no reason. Maybe I'm just tired of seeing the same, plastic people... with the same plastic, premade looks and styles. They even carry themselves like robots, and the only thing important is what's on the screen in front of them and THEIR FEELINGS WEE WOO pussies (even though I'm posting this crap!). No one seems real anymore. But maybe this is just the city I'm in.
I can't draw hands. I haven't been to a con yet. I haven't been to a fur meet. I barely draw anymore. I've fuckin' LOST it. I haven't talked to any of my friends on the phone in... eons. I don't talk to much of my family anymore. I'm friends with them on facebook, but they're miles away from me... not just literally but in life experiences and attitudes. Most of them came from super rich families, well, we were broke. And looked at weird like, "They don't even have a computer!" Granted, I do have more now than I ever did growing up... and I have myself and the hubby to thank.
This last year, I guess I did pick up a few neat things I've always wanted, like my industrial piercing and my jeep (that I keep pouring money into cuz it's super fun) and we're moving back to the east coast. Also came to terms with the gender stuff, and am able to talk to the hubby about it... sorta. Always knew about it, but ignored it because it's 'taboo' and unnerving in a way.
(Sorry for the bitching... I needed to rant. :|)
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Sorry to hear about the art college, that is a shame. Keep in mind that you arnt always going to be in debt, keep working your job to pay off those debts, and then start saving the money away in a separate bank account, say a savings account that you have a standing order set up to take money from your paycheck each month so you can't spend it accidentally . You will have the money to go to the art college you would want to go to in no time at all.
Curious about the gender stuff, what's that about?
I do like that secret savings account idea. I know that once we move to the east coast, I wanted to take night classes for art stuff, so that's prolly what I'll end up doing! :D Thanks for that awesome idea!!
Umm as far as the gender crap goes, I'll send you an email. XD
Glad I never bothered with college. Being flat broke > being in debt.
"This too shall pass."
*hugs*
Also, I am a bit curious about the gender thing too. Think I have a few ideas on such from comments of yours in the past, but I try not to read into things.