i really don't care if this looks perfect or not at this time.. just felt the need to draw this as i wait to tell it all to my boyfriend (he's my go to guy when i feel like hell) for today i was finally told by my dad that my mam-maw(what i call my grandmother) might not have much longer...

i really don't feel like going into detail other she has slowly been getting worse it seems. for the past couple of weeks she has been in and out of the hospital as doctors gave us a list of things that could be wrong but couldnt pin point what exactly is the problem..but still.. what the hell do doctors know? it feels as if they really haven't done much to help but stamp the 'oh well, shes old!' label on her...

i dunno, i would feel real bad that if i was getting all upset for nothing (sometimes i do get upset a little too easy it feels like)because who knows.. maybe the doctors predictions will be right or maybe they wont be and she'll have much more time, but i believe if my own dad tells me this then i better spend as much time with her as i can.. it's just so hard because it felt like yesterday she was healthy.. and now she isn't exactly in too good of shape