i have 7 siblings, 5 older brothers a younger sister and one older sister...

prepare your eyes for a rant! it includes RL drugs |C

my older sister has two kids a boy (10) and a girl (12) and she herself is 30.

now...when shes was roughly 25ish she 'accidently' sniffed cocaine wile partying which gave her a heart attack...now im not good with maths but that would put her kids at roughly 7 and 5 years old....my mom lied to our dad saying her drink was spiked and for the longest time i believe her, until that is my sister told me what really happened, i just want to know why she would go out, get drunk AND take such a dangerous drug when she has kids!
-sigh- i let it go, after all what can i do now?...how ever, a year or so ago she got a pacemaker and i think is going on a heart transplant list.
a week or so before x-mas she had an attack and had to go into hospital (nothing to server ) she was in and out a bit for the week from dizzy spells but i found myself thinking 'i hope she doesnt come out' i donno if i hoped she would die or just spend a wile in the hospital to really think about what shes done to her KIDS and her FAMILY!
then again shes never really looked after them, their past years where mostly spent at our place despite her having a house of her own.
mu mom found my niece crying her eyes out wile she was in the hospital too.....

i donno maybe its just me but i often find myself thinking how life would be with out her...
shes always taking money of my dad/mom (i think they got the ipad for my nef )
if given the chance she would go out drinking with her friends then stay at home with her kids.
i still hope she'll learn but day by day, it just seem useless....

end rant!

yes well....enjoy my first pic of the new year of me and my hate <3 :3