~~~Press F5 while in full view. I changed the resolution screw up. Not fuzzy anymore~~~


Ugh it says complete but I saw a bunch of missed shit. I'll try to complete it fully when I can >.<;



I didn't want to post this until it was finished, but I've been working on it the majority of the day...I'm tired and it is 1am so I'm going to bed.


Andy just got from from a 4 day roadtrip and he's feeling like he wants to rip someone's head off. He asked if he could see his christmas art on christmas eve day regardless if it is finished or not so here it is for now. I'm hoping to finish it asap. He's done so much for me this year...and at one point I was a bitch and I feel bad for ever getting that way. I hada weak moment, and didn't realize how much he truly was doing for me at that time...

Andy, forgive me for my moments this year where I wasn't the best person...and thank you...so much...from the bottom of my heart...for dealing with my bad sides...for being there for me even when I'm sure you wished I'd have just stopped and thought about what I was saying or doing. I'm sorry for my true female bitchness coming out at you during september and october. I love you baby..and I'm sorry that I haven't been able to show it much as of late. I wanted to do something spectacular for our 4 year...for your birthday....for christmas...but I simply couldn't get anything done...You bought me Sai, countless linden, shit for video games, just....a whole lot of great shit,man...ALOT...You spoiled me rotten this year..and I was an ungrateful little bitch a few months ago.

I can't express how grateful I am for everything you have done for me. I wish I could do nothing but art for only you all the time in hopes it'd make up for everything you do for me. But I can't...and I'm glad that you can still understand that...I love you so much darling. I can't say it enough. I just want you home...home, being...here...in my arms.

Last year i had the best christmas I've had in years. This year it's just empty again. Doesn't feel like the holidays at all. You made my holiday wonderful...and to this day I can't listen to 'Leaving on a Jet Plane' without feeling a true emotion and just fucking bawling like a baby...it reminds me of the day I had to go back home. And how close I was to just turning around and telling me family I missed my plane. I didn't want to leave...but I did miss home. I'm tired of my family. Of living with them...But...I want to start a new family. One with you. Very soon.

I know that shit's been hitting the fan for you alot lately, but I hope your Christmas is as merry as it can be, regardless of all the situations...I pray that you can come down in February. I'll be looking forward to having more kisses from you again. But just remember, there's way more shit to do in Texas. I'll be dragging you all over the place even if I have to put you on a leash <3

Again...I love you...more than anything,sweetheart. I hope I can get this done for you before the 26th...and I pray that I can finish many more romantic,sexy,or simply lovely pieces of art for you in our lifetime together. Merry Christmas,sugar bear.