Dear Depression why can't you leave me alone, please remove your cold arms from around me I am sick of being wet with my own tears and my body aches from setting onto this sofa like a stone at the bottom of the sea..I stand at the edge of this bridge looking at the sky and city for the last time tonight, last night I even wondered how many sleeping pills would it take for me to die and would I die in my sleep for have some sort of fit before I went..I'm tired of robbing everyone of their time, I am a wreck who has the mind of an old puzzle with huge chunks missing..
lazy to a fault..not so bad where I can't put my own dish away or clean it..but..still not good enough..I am not responsible and I can't make anyone else happy, I might as well of been born a dog or a cat...I'm just there and may help make them smile when they return or just an ear to listen to them when nobody else will, I may not have much to offer in advice but I listen...thats all people really need...love, simple love..but as a human I can't just offer that, its not enough...I am not enough..How I have been given things which I do not deserve, I did not earn them..I try to but I am weak and have no backbone, the stars twinkle..I take it they're waiting for me to join them up there, but then I see a ripple in the water..maybe hell is waiting too..I slowely move my foot forward inch by inch, closing my eyes to end I life that was not even worth having..the people in it I love..they were worth meeting..its just my own little bit of life I had..is not worth it for them...before I could freefall I felt a furry little thing brush my ankle and a booming voice, I flung out my arms and caught this weird looking cat by its tail, before I was yanked back as well, I turned my head and showed this muscular man the animal "Here's your pet?, keep it on a leash so it doesn't run off like that..he could of been dead" he takes the creature into his arms, agaist his nice suit..I crossed my arms as I stood, the hair covering my eyes as I waited for them to leave, they didn't "why are you still here, its cold and that thing could get sick" I, again turned my frail back towards him, I was pale and thin..and pretty bizarre looking to humans..I am actually human..just a freaky kind of one that was called Mutant growing up.., big Tanned hands were placed onto my shoulder, I tensed as he spoke "My Brother wanted to go off on his own for a Year or so, so he left me with his exotic pet, I kind of owed him one..but he's a handful and makes such a huge mess..I do need someone to help me with him and clean up my place since I kind of get busy to do it..I don't have enough money to pay you sooo maybe you could work for food and board? as long as you help me your payment is a roof over your head and something to eat?" I cocked an eyebrow not sure what he was getting at "I AM staying with someone, why can't you go place an add in a newspaper and find someone else, I'm not interested" as i finished those words he grabbed my arm and looked down at me "because most of the people that would read the paper are not about to leap off a Bridge to their own death, if you can't find a reason to live on your own I will give you one, and that is helping me" as I really looked at him, his face was masked, kind of odd..but I wasn't really sure " I was already doing such things where I live...but its not enough, I am stupid, I make to many mistakes and none of the talants I actually have or worth anything AHHHH!" I was picked up with this catthing on my chest, was I being kidnapped? the creature smiled at me and opened its mouth to say "Miff" "Miff"....it felt as if it was reading my soul...that maybe ..just maybe it was searching for me inparticularly...and lead this man to me?..no..I am not that special and this isn't some fantasy where I suddenly matter in such a way...but..doesn't look like I will be dying tonight...maybe whenever he's done with me...or whenever I'm alone..

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sad males name- Emote
masked dudes name- Wes
creatures name- Miff

song heard: Dear Agony by Breaking Benjamen
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KGrM1sh-8pE