I've been battling this dilemma for what seems like centuries (or a few years). Ice blue or dark brown eyes? Sometimes I change Dakarai around a bit when I find a new romantic partner and my last boyfriend made me want to change his blue eyes to brown. I was pleased. His eyes looked so warm, but lost his fanciful romantic quality. Ironically, the new boyfriend I have inspired me to change his eyes again. My boyfriend has dark blueish eyes (moreso grey) with a brown ring around the pupil which I never imagined would exist in nature. It's really cool looking. So I thought this would solve my blue eye?/brown eye? situation.

Now, my boyfriend isn't like Dakarai at all. He's outgoing and playful while Dakarai is much more reserved and loving. As I have said before, Dakarai is my ideal. He has a very generalized personality and I haven't really imagined how Badu (essentially me) and Dakarai would interact. I think I am forced to avoid this idea because even though in my imagination of Badu's life, she finds Dakarai again and they fall in love and get married, living out their life in Egypt, it simply doesn't feel right.

Badu travels to the cold, snowy climate of the Alps and finds him. Her fur grows longer to brace the cold which I have formulated as a way for Sphinxes to adapt since they are naturally encouraged to travel (why they appear in different societies in the Eastern part of the world) but it just doesn't seem right. Long fur looks bland on her. It doesn't suit her and she's not meant for the cold.

When Dakarai leaves the Alps to return to Egypt (where they had first met and where he spent his childhood) his furt becomes short to adapt to the immense heat. This doesn't look right on him either and despite the pattern on his fur, he looks somehow bland. He becomes less attractive to me, and less like how I would like him.

When I make up stories in my mind, I allow my mind to wonder to what seems right. I often fight against instinct to make it out how I want to be. I want Dakarai and Badawia to find each other, be together, and live happily ever after in a magical world where they are treated as royalty and have beautiful Sphinx babies. This is attributed to my own little Mary Sue world where I can be a part of the same lavish lifestyle.

My realistic instincts lead me elsewhere though. Badu continues to travel, never being revered or even really respected and never finding any of her kind again. And I feel that's by choice. Most of all, she doesn't find her ideal mate.

It's life I suppose. And my mind faces it no matter how much I desire the ideal.

It's not that the ending is sad. Badu does live happily despite her life not being perfect and I suspect that Dakarai would feel the same. They don't need each other to be happy and I guess given there physical adaptation and appearance, they would be far too different to be together...so initially, they're not meant to be.

To a superficial conclusion, I'm not sure how I feel about the eye change. I liked the warmness of his eyes just being brown. These colors are interesting though. I do feel more romance towards him. I reckon I'll give it a test run like I did with his brown eye change and Badu's blue eye change.