I want to share with you how I feel...

Sometimes I get overwhelmed by a huge feeling of sadness..

It feels like a huge burden consisting of worries, regrets, feelings of guilt,
]feelings of loss, loneliness, and all this mixed with various fears.

Sometimes I think of my dear ones,

and I start to cry bitterly, because I'm still sad that they're no longer with us.
Most of the time, I blame myself for any mistakes, and at such moments,
I absolutely do not care how they happened

It doesn't matter to me, because it's at this moment that I get reallyangry with myself :(

I worry too much about other people,

because this feeling it becomes so big, as if my burden is much greater
than the grief of the person who went through it.

It's very hard for me to control my emotions. If I'm angry, I can't stop
the anger from bubbling up. If I'm sad, I can't get rid of the nagging
desire to ruin everyone's day (my terrible trait*).
They take a lot of energy, they take away your health, they take away your time.
And most often they are meaningless.
But now (in 2026), my emotions have become
much stronger than myself. I've never felt so often that "there's no way out",
and it overwhelms everything that exists nearby.