My dear friends, I am going through a very difficult time right now, and I want to tell you about myself and my situation, in case anyone is interested.
I know it's not a good idea to share personal things with my followers, but I don't have any close friends left to share with. So I thought that you are my friends too, and I should share my thoughts with you.❤️

Well...
My name is Alexandra, I was born in Russia and I have lived here all my life. I love this country very much, but the laws force me to leave it in the future..
I recently graduated from university with a degree in photography. I graduated with top marks. But I had to sacrifice money for this, and I took out a loan so I could live and eat.
Currently, my debt to my girlfriend is around 140,000 rubles, or 1,800 dollars (in Russia, this is a very large amount, as the average salary is 360-400 dollars).

I have been struggling with severe depression and obsessive-compulsive disorder for several years, but nothing has helped. I spend money on doctors, medication, food, and credit debt.

I have a beloved wife whom I want to marry one day (we have to travel to other countries and spend a lot of money to do so). She always supports me and loves me very much.. I'm doing my best for us, but nothing is working out.. (спасибо, я не знаю чтобы без тебя делала❤️‍🩹)

My parents hate me for loving girls. I left home at 15, but for the past five years, they've been saying terrible things to me, following me, and trying to catch me and my girlfriend off guard. There are cameras in our house, and they always watch to see if I'm coming home or not. My girlfriend and I enter and exit our house separately, 10 minutes apart. I can never tell them anything about my life. The saddest thing is that even if we have a wedding, our parents won't know about it... They hate us... They've said terrible things to me.. to us...
We're hiding, we're running away...
I'm tired.

I've been working since I was 12 years old.. I started working in stores.. Then in a warehouse.. Then as an artist..
I'm trying really hard for us, I don't eat much. And the only thing I want is to save money with my girlfriend and move to a place where we don't have to hide and we can walk out of our house together
To be honest Im crying now, when I write it...

I didn't have a childhood, all I did was work. But even now, I don't have any prospects or money to earn the necessary amount to leave. I want to be happy, I love her very much, and I'm trying not to give up, but right now, it's hard for me to even get out of bed...

Sorry to everyone who read this.. I don't think I'll leave here anymore.. I want to be safe... I just want to be happy with my wife..